10 days off suboxone ughh

[Kelly98_]

I just want to sleep right! Ive been on suboxone for 6 yrs and ive finally just quit cold turkey and its been ruff as ever but my pins and needles are gone now im just cold and clammy and never really comfortable yet! But I have to continue and at night im taking melatonin to help me sleep at least 3 hrs but what I wouldnt do for a real nights rest! I have night terrors and panic but for the most part I can sit still during the day and eat. Its not easy im not gonna lie but im trying to find a recovery center I can go into for at least 30 days! I need to keep positive about this and thank god I have a mother who cares because I almost slipped yesterday I even had her drive me to walgreens but she spied on me and saw me pick up a script of 8 suboxone my doc called in so ya cravings are still hard to deal with! But how long till I sleep right? Nobody should ever go on this antagonist because it is harder to get off of!

[Kelly98_]

Thanks all of you! I was in a 13 year marriage and I married this man I believed he was someine else but after that first year passed I knew I screwed up! I let my guard down and joined him in his opiate addiction! I'm not blaming him but I do feel I wouldn't of done this by myself either! At first I was snorting oxy cottons for about a year or so and then I started to let my husband shoot me up with them for about 6 months and by then my addiction was so bad I grew inpatient waiting for him to go first so then I started to figure out how to myself! I started opiates in december of 2002 and I was 22 yrs old and never heard of withdrawl, but now here I sit at 34 yrs old wondering what happened to my life? So anyways about 2007 I had found out about suboxone and I also think it was because they did away or were trying to figure out how to create oxy cotton so that us addicts couldn't abuse it any longer like we liked to! So from 2007 to until 10 days ago I have been hooked on suboxone and first and for a long time I thought they were the miracle drug since we didn't have to spend most our day scrambling for cash in anyway to get our next fix to be able to function! I remeber when I knew I didn't like pills anymore cus it wasn't about the high for me it was being able to function through the day! What a nightmare! I don't wish this on my worst enemy if I had one! I've had my ex od on oxys and speed and I've had quite a few other friends die and I'm just done! I might only be 10 days clean but I sat on my couch and watched 3 hularious movies and you know what I haven't laughed as hard as I did in a very long time! I actually realized it and it made me happy! I am an addict and I have a problem but that doesn't make me a bad person! I am a listener and I'm. Very quizative and friendly and giving and I know that speaking to god everyday has helped and when I ask for the pain to go away he sometimes stops my pain! I have started saying this verse from the bible which is 1chronicles 4:10- Jabez cried to the god of isreal He said I wish you would bless me I wish you would give me more territory Let your powerful hand keep me from harm Then I will not have any pain

[dirtydirk]

I know all 2 well about oxycotin getting turned into the new formula, when they got switched we could still find them in our area for a month or 2 after consistantly and then if you found them after the 2 months they were super expensive and i would call them dinosoar bones beause they were so rare....but instead of switching to subs  i grad. to heroin and lived that life up until 50 days ago tommorrow i dont blame the person that shot me up the first time either but it only took 1 time of showin me how to do it and i was operating on my own arm soon thereafter......1 thing i wont and didnt do is shoot someone up for the first time and if n e thing if i would see someone new in the circle (birds of a feather flock together) i would try and tell them that they would be feeling like complete hell in the near future and opiates is NOT the drug u wana mess with ( but ppl gotta fig things out on there own usually Live and learn right)

[kuku4kokopuffs]

Today is my 6th day not dosing on Suboxone.

I've been doing a lot of sneezing too, but generally feel fine. I tapered myself down from 8mg a day over a 3 month period and had an easy time of it.

I did start to flip-flop in bed last night for the first time since I started tapering or jumped. I got up for a few minutes and started yawning, so I went back to bed and slept 6 hours, which is a full nights sleep for me.

[Kelly98_]

And god gave him what he asked for! Say this verse 3x a day for 7 days! It helped me sleep for a little somenights like god took my pins and needles feeling away! My step dad was also an alcoholic and I have gone to meetings with him because he knew at that time I was an addict to well in 2006 after being 7 yrs sober he passed at the age of 47 but the point is he inspired me because he wrote his life story and he went from state to state to speak his story at A/A and when we went to Akron University for the 85th or something like that anniversary of where A/A began I sat behind this man that had a saying on his shirt that felt to me like god made him sit there for me to read it! Or higher power! I believe in both! But it was so surreal and I also at age 31 survived a heart attack after not breathing for 3 minutes and the only time I remember waking up for a few seconds was when the pasture was saying to me my last rights because noone thought I was going to make it! Well I remember feeling so at piece when I saw that and I passed back out! But 3 days later I awoke out of a coma to find out I was put on that milk stuff micheal jackson died from and morphine andd god knows what else! So I say I was on suboxone so they immediatley start me back on subs and I was very weak from that seasaw ride and recovering from a heart attack! I'm just ready to keep fighting to stay clean because I realize while on suboxone and other opiates I was numb and I rarely laughed anymore! I'm already laughing again because I keep having bursts of exitement or sillyness from exhaustion either or but I'm laughing! My 9th day clean laughing! Its amazing to feel anything so I'm glad I've made it this far! Think positive right! Well now everyone knows most of my story!

[Kelly98_]

One second at a time or one minute or one day which ever you can handle! Just a thought! Thanks everyone I hope u enjoyed my story! I hope I continue this story with 2014 March 6th first day clean and so on clean!

[Merri123]

10 days!!! You did it girl yeah!!!! So happy for you. You triedso hard and did it.

Energy - you can try l-tyrosine. It teally helps some. Start with 500mg and see how it is. Melatonin for sleep. Nice hot baths with epson salt and lots of bubbles. Put in some music you love and lay back and relax.

Other than that, time. Another week snd you will feel better more and more.

I am so happy for you. Keep moving forward. The rest is now your past.