What Addict 63 said!!
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I've been in AA since Sept. 1982 and haven't had a drink since my first meeting. So, I've heard your story before, many many times. Just different people, of all walks of life. Alcohol is cunning, baffling and powerful. It's the meanest drug of them all, and it's available to anyone. Alcoholism is a mental obsession with a fatal progression.
You need to save your life. From what I just read, you possess the willingness to do something about your drinking and drugging. That's all it takes, willingness. Don't be afraid to tell your Doctor. But if you are, your nearest hospital might be a good place to start, especially the next time you get really bad. Head for the ER. They pretty-much can't turn you away, and they will at least safely detox and dry you out from both benzo and alcohol. Or go on-line and search detox ctrs., even the Salvation Army. They're famous for their treatment centers. Do SOMETHING! Right now you're filled with willingness, go with it!
Once you're detoxed, then it's time for the nearest AA meeting. I'm here to say it works. It REALLY works. I'm alive. I wouldn't be if I, myself, hadn't detoxed and gone to AA. I simply kept going. I dragged my body to the meetings and my mind slowly followed. I don't know when the compulsion to drink left me, but I was completely amazed how quickly it worked. And it's so simple. I don't know why I didn't do it years before. I owe my life to a bunch of drunks, no different than you and me. They helped me, and I in turn, help others. So, you're actually helping me stay sober, by writing what you wrote.
Give yourself a fighting chance.
It is a must to do inpatient detox with alcohol and benzos. You could die if you keep taking them and you could die if you detox too quickly at home without professional help. It also may not be a quick detox. I'm not trying to be the one to give bad news, but benzo wd is not a quick fix. I have done it!
My suggestion, the one that I want you to really see and think about is to do something fast. Don't keep justifying and putting it off for "whatever" reason!!! You certainly could die!
Best wishes to you!
for alchol and bezos abuse i would strong advise you get into detox or rehab thats a deadly combnation one of these mornings your not going to wake up if you keep going the way you are .-Plz save your life before it to late