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[wannabefreeagain]

Yep.....I been quiet for last 2-3 days........I am working recovery program.   Im just wondering, why cant I seem to get a grip mentally yet?  I now have..today makes 18 days clean.   I have quit numerous times, I do not remember my depression, and weirdness taking this long to level out.  I hope I have not damaged myself permanently.  Im taking cal,mag, zinc pills...also ibuprofen, and just got put on cymbalta couple days ago, im drinking plenty fluids, my appetite is getting a lil better.  Still exercising.  I just dont get it.  Still pushing my drained body to take epsom baths.   I dont know, maybe Im just expecting too much too soon.  I have no desire to use, thats the only good thing I feel right now. Well......I pray I get to feeling better mentally,& emotionally, real soon, this is draining & very disappointing.  I also know there is nothing I can do bout it, Im doing the things needed, I guess I just have to wait ....just wish I knew when I will feel better.  Im really down.....but Im trying.

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl....well congrats on 18 days your off to a great start... as for still feeling in the dumps it is quit normal....recovery comes in baby steps....please dont do this alone you need support...I know your involved with your church recovery group for aftercare....can you call anybody???in N/A we often meet up with other addicts for a cup of coffee...this forum is a big help but it does not replace live human interaction....as for your recovery....just take it for what it is worth  like I said b/4 each detox we go threw seams to be worst then the one b/4 at least it was for me...also in N/A it is a daily progam we just have to get threw today and not pick up  count your blessings your not craving  that is huge keep pposting for support
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Gnarly<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

[jifmoc]

Girl, I remember feeling just like you; 14 days, 18 days, 25 days...when will I feel better? I don't want to scare you, but it's going to take a while. 18 days is a nice start but it's so early. How long did you use for? Certainly a helluva lot longer than 18 days. You need to know it's going to take quite a chunk of time to feel normal again. I think it will help if you stop expecting to feel okay right now. You won't. But that's okay, it's just feelings. They'll pass. Whatever recovery you are doing, I hope you are doing it daily: the more you immerse yourself in recovery, the quicker you'll feel better. We know it's hard for us addicts, but you have to find some way to have patience.