Not just you babe. I was doing okay, but today 6 days in I got severe abdominal pains coming up making me vomit and stuff. No energy. Can't eat. This is BS. I mean I decide to quit and feel like I am not getting any reward for my effort. If the gut pain would stop the other symptoms would be manageable. AAAARRrrrrrrrggggg.I am getting frustrated.
I'm getting off of hydrocodone and it's awful. It's not even the physical symptoms that are killing me. It's the anxiety and panic. God this is so hard. I keep freaking out because I can't help but wonder if this will never go away? What if it's just me?
You are in the best place being here. Everyone has been helpful and supportive. I thought I would loose my hubby, because I too have done this 3 times. I think what kept me from trying to stay clean was the fear of pain and of withdrawls. I told him and he was furious, but today he is in the fight with me. I will never judge your decision to not tell her, but I can say it is nice to have my hubbys support and HELP! He went so proactive he told his boss, called the drug addiction clinic and we have an appointment Monday. Of course I could go to hospital and get something but I keep saying I came this far, why go back. I take it 1 minute at a time. Just posting the hours I have got is such a help. I know what pill w/d are lick. My first one was perks and I almost died. I went into renal failure, threw up blood, heart and bloodpressure bottomed out and they gave me heart drugs. Pills stopped the pain but only for an hour or 2 then I needed more and more. Before long it was 10 perks a day. I have to fight the thought on getting on methadone. etc etc.
My point is YOU CAN DO IT! STAY ON HERE AND POST AWAY! Good luck to you.
Don't know about that but I've been thru this more times than I would like to count... Actually cane off fent a couple months ago and am fighting hydrocodone wd's right now. Constant struggle for me and I am in a similar situation with my wife where I can't tell her or I will loose everything. The hard part for me is after withdrawal I somehow convince myself I can just use a little even though I know I can't because I'm an addict! I think the mantra has to be get me thru this and then once u feel better it has to change to keep me away from the drugs. I never had an issue till I had surgeries and the beautiful drug that made all the pain go away became a coping mechanism. My life has gone downhill from there!
Thanks. Yeah the store I went to did not have it at all. I appreciate the info. It gets good then crash, wave of symptoms. I have some kids immodium, could I try it?
You need to get the immodium ad! In is a godsend for your stomach. It has lopermide which is an opiate like substance that will calm your stomach! Basically it acts as opiates do on your gastrointestinal tract and will calm your stomach issues alot! It won't take it away but it will help quite a bit. Keep going your doing good! The other thing that always helps me is try to stay as calm as you can. I've always found when I get upset everyhing magnifies!
My boyfriend-like figure has no idea. I'm just telling him the anxiety has no source because he knew I was addicted before and I told him I quit. So I know how you feel with that.
I'm glad you're doing it for good. I am too, even though I'm so young and it's my first addiction. It's just not worth it. I know a lot of people wish they had known that when they were my age (I'm told that a lot).
But if you need me to, I'll try to be here long term (I'm on the internet a LOT) to try to keep you in check.
I know that's a big promise to make, but it seems like I'm on this site for good.
It feels good to at least TRY to help people, even if I don't do much.