Thanks so much for your quick response..Happy new years to you-I think its amazing that you feel great and loving yourself-well-thats what its all about-!I want to be there-i have never loved myself-i have clinical depression-and have moments of clarity-feel ok-but i get very down..doesn't help when your kicking as things become more overwhelming-But im going in this-with the attitude of it must be done-and i failed-but im trying again-I have no choice-ive depleted my funds-and barely have enough money to put food on the table-never mind-heating oil-which i got less than a week left-and its freezing cold out/so-the time is now so i can work next week-and get back on my feet.
I really screwed up this time..but i screw up every time i think its going to be different-
Heres to a better Year!
peace/
alice
Hi Alicelost--- Welcome to the forum --- you are at the right place. Just reading your post, I would say that you are going into this with your eyes open and knowledge of what to expect ---- Refusingbondage certainly knows what she is talking about. Limiting your intake of Sub to only a few days is a very good way to take it -- just for help over the initial stage. After than you will have some W/D's but as long as you know it and prepare for them, they shouldn't be too bad. To those who believe that they won't have any W/D's or are not prepared to do any suffering, I doubt their chances of getting clean. I think you will make it. Several things I did that helped me --- First, I cut off my supply - told my doctor -- no going back - even in a weak moment -- make the commitment. Next, I read every post on this site -- got all of the differing opinions --- that helps -- When the going got tough - - I KNEW that it would end -- my depression, the shakes, the runs, hot/cold sweats, mental fog, and above all the lethargy/lack of any energy -----ALL of this was going to end - I believed the folks on this site -- and you know - they were right -- all of these symptoms did end. I am brand new person -- and I love me. Hey, you picked a great day to quit -- a new year and a new start ---be strong --- you CAN do this. Please keep posting - when one thread gets down close to the bottom, start another and keep writing -- it will help you and others. All the best. Happy New Year.