5 months clean from coke

[gizzy32]

5 months ago i hated my family, i hated myself, i hated my life and it was torture waking up in the morning. i was a functioning cokehead that worked, but i hid a terrible secret, well at least i thought i did cause deep down i knew everyone knew i was using a lot. 30-40 lines a day is not healthy and it took it's toll.

today i am 5 months clean and i love my family, i love myself and i love my life again. im about to start back to work fulltime monday and am lucky cause we have a family business and i love my job. im about to start playing golf again, my passion, it was my life for a while as i attended college and was gonna turn pro, but i have no regrets about that aspect now, i love my job. i have met an amazing women and this is the only time in my life i know she is the one :). i feel like a COMPLETELY different man and i want to let anyone out there know that recovery is possible. i truly believed it was impossible to get clean and be happy, but man, i feel ******* good. life without drugs is a life.
ty to all my friends here for their support, you are amazing and i couldn't have done this without you. this forum has kept me clean.

[newgirl2708]

Can you see me doin' the WWWWAAAAAAAAAAVVVE here in So Cal?
Way to Go!! What a great post!!! I will re read it today...
newgirl

[sickcookie]

Well Gizzy you deserve all the happiness and great things life has to offer.What a great post!!!Congrats darling,your a great guy

[oxygirl487]

ok im crying...im so proud of u..u know i love u to death and we will win u know that and iknwo it too.......i messed up the other day but yet u stuck by my side and i wanna thank u for that...meant alot to me.....u mean alot to me in fact im proud to say u r my best friend on here.......one day we will be completely happy again.....we will have what we want in life.......u r taking the first steps to that now...doesnt it feel good?...i love it..even though i relapsed i know i will succeed....im so happy that u finally found love u deserve it sweetie.....ok im done crying lol..happy for u giz...love u and god bless u sweetie.....

[cathy5841]

OMG, giz, i dont even know where to start.  you are awesome.  5 months is awesome.  i know you worked to get where you are today and you deserve all the love and happiness you can snatch from life.  yhank you so much for the hours you have spent listening to me cry.  your friendship is a gift in itself.  may God continue to  bless you in your new life.
i  love ya
cathy

[allaboutmary]

CONGRADULATIONS !  This is so great and you deserve every bit of happiness. Your an inspiration to all !   Hugs,   Mary

[GoingToMakeIt]

Gizzy, I am so proud of you. What an accomplishment! You have gotten your life back and have been such an inspiration to us all! Going back to work will be a good thing. I realize it will mean being on here less but it is time for you to do this. You are such a wonderful person. I wish the best for you.

[avisg]

that ia wonderful,you are doing sooooooo well ,keep it up.
avis

[taekwondo_fighter]

great job bro!!!
you are one of the veterans on this site, at least for me, whos advice i value...
stay strong bro

[confused456]

Congratulations to you.

[mimi1313]

Congratulations!! 5 months is so awesome and you sound great. I'm glad everything is going so well! You have been such an inspiration to others on this forum.

Melissa

[Friend999]

What a success story!  The new loved one and "your life" are your reward.

I am sooo happy for you!

Friend999

[sadinmichigan]

That is so wonderful to hear. i am very happy for you. if you don't mind i have a couple of questions about cocaine..i did it a very long time ago, but can someones personality change drastically in just a matter of a couple months of using..such as bizarre behavior etc..? i appreciate any advice on that. i am suspecting someone i love may be in this predicament.this person has been known to always be against this drug..Thankyou and again CONGRATS!!

[opi]

sweeeeeeeeeeet

[gizzy32]

yes, someone's behaviour can change in a couple weeks of use. this drug messes the brain up bigtime and thinking patterns are completely different. coming down of coke happens very quick and it's a complete nightmare. in fact someone on coke change their personality from hour to hour, it's a crazy drug. you know im here if you have any questions about it, or what signs this person is using coke

ty my friends for the kind words, it really means a lot.

[Needhelp59]

You are such a special person - your words of encouragement have meant the world to me.  I have tried to get my sister to read your posts - I know they would be a source of inspiration for her.  God bless and and THANK YOU for being you!!  Congratulations!!

[bmc1976]

Way to go on 5 months! You have come so far during over the past few months. You have beat one of the hardest things you will every have to deal with.....addiction. There is nothing in life that can stand in your way! Be very proud of yourself. I know I am! I'm so happy for you!
Brian

[sadinmichigan]

thankyou..i have a few more questions but I'll pm you  thankyou again..

[LIZZIE LOU]

God is truly blessing you :)

(in more ways than one)

[lostdreams]

Well done, you deserve everything. Be proud and stay strong. I'm new to this forum and you were the first person to answer my mailing and since then i have noticed you always answer other posts, with this i would like to say Thank You. Your an inspiration!!!! Take care.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Congratulations first of all - I too fought the coke monster and even if it isnt physically addicting it is one hell of a challenge - it takes a special person to make it through that demon .... and its great that you found the human race again!! This time watch out for speeding tickets.....have always enjoyed your humor and posts - thanks

[worried878]

news like that is good news!  congrats giz

[Rose703]

Congradulations!!!! Also I want to thank you for such an uplifting post. It really sounds like you're doing wonderful and I'm so happy that you found the love of your life. Many blessing to you as you continue to stay clean and play golf!! LOL, mind hitting a few for me?

[Emmas Mom]

Chris I am SOOOOOOOOOO proud of you!  You are doing such a great job my friend and deserve a pat on the back!  TO many many months more clean.

Love ya!
Beth:)

[swtbreezie]

(((((((((((((Lil Brother))))))))  Congrats on 5 months I'm very proud of you.  You are one of my original angels here and I miss ya!  I know I havent been around much, I am back home for a bit for probation.  I am doing the classes, but still clean and sober 2 and a half months.  It's tough being away from my guy, but I have to do this so I can relocate (crossing fingers,toes,eyes anything else that will cross)  Boy it's tough to be here and stay clean but I'm doing it!  I think of all of you daily and keep you in my prayers!  I can't be on everyday, I am at my sister's now.
hugzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz MY ANGELS
swtbreezie