Why is it..

[cruz214]

That everytime im going thru a hard time I just want to use? I have been clean for about 2 weeks already from heroin. Im happy for myself but I just want the cravings to stop because im not a strong person mentally.
I get my money today and im actually worried to get it because I know im not even going to think, im just gonna go get heroin without thinking of the consequences.
I just want to stay clean so bad but it to hard for me, it became a everyday/every 2 hour thing to do heroin and I really feel like I dont have nothing without it.
If anyone has ever gone thru these feelings please let me know what made u not go back. And how u did it when u got money to not go and buy.
Thank u!.

[marycarmel]

I agree ... buy yourself a nice present instead of wasting your money on something that will kill you.  You've come a long way.  I have no experience with heroin but I had to get myself of Fentanyl and it was no picnic.  So many times i thought I could stay on this forever ... it was prescribed and they wrote me so many scripts even I knew it was dangerous.  It was a long, hard taper off that and other things at the same time but I never gave up.  So, distract yourself, go to the mall, go for a walk, anything to take the focus off the craving!

[Norco1947]

Hi Cruz ,  Welcome , Your stronger then you think , 2 weeks clean is fighting hard , good for you .
Good question .
After long time drug use , We train our brain to expect drugs and the drug life every 2-3 hours . Now your brain wants its drug . This will ease in time .
Find things to do , little things you don't mind doing , when the craveing starts go do something for 10 - 15 Min. Walk your dog , take the trash out , water the lawn , call a friend . retrain your brain just do something you like to do.
If its a strong craveing and you are weak at the time get on this site fast and post for help . Thats why were here .
Your doing great but remember everybody goes thru about the same discomforts of drug detox , tired no sleep , body pains , EMOTIONS out of control , You have beat the worst part , now stay strong & stay positive this will get better soon , You can do this , read the posts others have gotten there lifes back , So will you .
After only 2 + months drug free i can tell to this .
I now go all day doing things , pretty happy , enjoy family and friend again like my life .
My worst day drug free i still smile and feel happy .
My days on drugs were SH*T , never happy no joy , just pills every 2-3 hours .
Save that money for Chrismas shopping , Buy yourself a present... Ron

[wantfreedom495]

Wow. I am having similar thoughts this morning. The craziness set in again, 36 Days off opiates. Feeling sad. The only thing I know for sure is that, if I use, I will be back in the same place again, laying in bed without a life. If I don't use, I have a chance that things will be better in five minutes or an hour or tomorrow.  Don't loose the two weeks you have worked for and miss the moment when you feel better!

[kennysocal]

Hey don't do it I am a recovering Heroin addict IV user. Got on methadone, went to suboxone and now I am on dome again. I know what u are going threw. Hell I have been their were u are looking at the cash and like **** it. Call pedro and get some black. I know it is already in ur mind but it is NOT worth it!! I don't know u but I can relate. I was strung the fudge out, homeless, and just trying to stay well. It's been 4 years off Black. I have a home a car 4 dogs and a girl that I love. Sure everyday is STILL a battle. I still want to get loaded but is it really worth it. The **** is garbage now all lattose and all you do is wait for the connect. just to get a 20 that is really a 10 and get well. Don't do it go buy ur self something u have wanted. If you need a friend email me ok.

[marycarmel]

I think most people who suffer from addiction have to deal with cravings.  Are you in any aftercare or program?  That seems essential to be successful at this  Please try to go to AA/NA or set up some counseling, the sooner the better.  I'd hate to see you lose your clean time after all you've gone through.  Just stay in the minute and keep posting until you can get something set up!  You can do this.  Keep distracting yourself until you can find some IRL support.