9 days!!

[lostmarbles]

To all you lovely people.. just checking in to let you know that W/D's have gone and my mind is clearer. I have not posted in a couple of days but I have been checking in and reading posts and putting my 2 pence in (or cents to you guys) well I finally feel that I can continue my work (Im a writer) as the cloud has lifted. I have retracted my script from my publisher as I re-read it yesterday and discovered that it wasn't 'me' who had written the book. It was of course me on meds that had written it and now that I'm not on them anymore my train of thought has changed!! Yes, it will take me another few months possibly to re-write everything but it's the price I have to pay. At least it will keep me busy and focused!! I hope everyone is well and as always, I send you lots of love! Happy Valentines Day to all

[lostmarbles]

Mike with family ; amazingly I have had a couple of my friends supporting me through this and so I obviously admitted that I was an addict, and yes, they commented on my 'crazy' behaviour!! Behaviour, I might add, that I was not aware of especially when drinking alcohol!!  seriously, I had no clue... also without alcohol I was a complete nutjob, very hyper, very manic, basically all over the place. As one of my friends put it, 'Marianne you are lovely nuts normally, but when you were on the meds, you were crazy nuts'  so there you go.. I was crazy nuts!!

Hopsing; God yes, I am well aware of the idea of taking one or two won't matter. Fortuanately I have not has those feelings and luckily the only way to get the benzos is from a doctor and as my doctors are aware of my addiction they will not be prescribing them to me at all.. plus i do not have the urge for them so it all helps!! yes I am definately coming to the states to see all you guys for the get together.. I can't wait!!!

Honestly, re reading the book I was exceptionally shocked at what I had written!!! WOW, those meds have alot to answer for!! onwards and upwards!!! my love to all of you as always!!!

[worried878]

and how goes it for you?

[hopsing94]

Well it seems you are starting to find your marbles. I'm so happy for you,you seem like such a good soul. Way to stick with it through the tough times and now you can feel the difference. Please be careful because now is when the mental aspect of things start to hit. You might feel that now your clean one or two won't hurt and that I just want that one more buzz and I can handle a couple without getting hooked again. This is a dangerous time so please be careful. I only say that because I went through it and alot of us do. I hope you don't. Just making you aware. I never knew it because I never went more than a week without before. I hope your still thinking of coming over to see us. I'm still working on it and I am determined to put something together. Love ya girl and keep up the good work.

[phipps68]

Keep it up! I am here for you!

[toxictome]

Heeeeyyy lostmarbles...I wondered where you were! Glad you're still w/us!!!  

A writer, eh?
You could probably write a best seller on "The Lives and Times of Medhelp Addicts" LOL

I remember the cloud starting to lift..my mind was pretty foggy!

Happy V-day to you, too!!! Take care, girl!!!  hugs

[MikeWithFamily]

Hey Marbles,
That is so awesome to hear. I was worried about you earlier when you came on and was having fits with the W/D symptoms. I"m really glad to hear you are doing better. Thats just tremendous.
Just curious to know, did anyone tell you that your behavior was considerably different as well? I sensed that I was acting different because when I told some close family members about my problem and that I was going to get treatment, they all said "that answers alot fo questions about the way you were acting"...lol. WOW, I thought. I did not realize I was acting any different than normal. Anyway, Awesome to hear Marble. Best of luck to you and I hope you continue to heal.
MikeWithFamily

[GoingToMakeIt]

Marbles, it is good to hear from you. I wasn't aware that you were a writer. That is wonderful. I am not surprised that you are re-writing your book. I am amazed at how many things I thought I did were OK then when clean. They do look different.

[avisg]

You are doing great ....keep it up ..... :)