20 Days Clean Today

[TurningANewLeaf]

Hello All !!!  I just want to give hope to all those out there that may be going through the same thing I was not too long ago.  A little backround on me, I was on the fentanyl patch for 2 years.  I quit 1/20 because I was sick of being so tired, unmotivated and grumpy all the time.  Until Sunday, I wasn't feeling well.  I actually ended up in the ER last Thursday due to extreme stomach cramping and burning along with diarrhea and burning on the spine.  Anyhow, just wanted to share that I am feeling alot better.  I got ALOT accomplished today and really feel like I'm getting back to being the mom I once was and have been wanting to be again.

Here's one of the best things.... I had a bottle of 30 vicodin which I flushed down the toilet today.  That, for me, is HUGE !!!!  I've never ever flushed an opiate away.  Oh, and I did turn my leftover patches into the pharmacy back on 1/20.  

I want to thank everyone who has commented and been there for me these past 3 weeks.  

I will definitely continue to use this site as I know I am not quite where I want to be and would like to help anyone else out there that may end up going through what I have gone through.

[Trying_hard19]

Wow, congratulations .. I am new here.. your story is encouraging to me..

[BETTE_DAVIS_EYES]

Sister I am so Poud of you1  you have given me some newfound hope!

MAY i GIVE U A LITTLE HISTORY ON ME; i was badly abused as a chid, broken bones,etc.  I grew up never knowing what a good man was; unfortunately, for me three abusive husbands, broken nose, torn ligaments, rotator cuff tear that didn't heal. non-union of a scaphoid fracture of my lret wrist, severe spine damage and now of course ostoarthritis and years of patches, diludids, percocettes, Oxycontin; I developed physical tolerance; so I thought I would try METHADONE!!!  THAT WAS THE DUMBEST THING I EVER DID NEXT TO CHOOSING BAD PARTNERS!

ANYWAY, two months ago my partner surprises me with tickets to Cambodia and Thailsnd, needless to say my stupid dog-c was on a cruise for a month and no-one would taper mr=e down.  The good ol doc gets back after christmas and starts dropping me like crazy.  I have gone From 80 mg to 29mg since Jzn.3.  Needless to say because of my poor judgement of men; he thinks this is a walk in the park and is aiways starting fights wiyh me.  Tomoorow I drop to 15mg  on fri I drop to 10mg.  The good doctor is going to be kind enough to let me take 6 10 mg with me.  MY FLIGHT LEAVES IN FOUR DAYS I CAN BARELY FUNCTIO ; I AM I N HELL; AND ALL I CAN DO IS PRAY. I AN-M SO ALONE!!

[worried878]

great u r sticking around to help!  geez..the need is there...positive posts like urs and support is what many need to make it thru

congrats on ur clean time!

[josh231]

Very awsome job, you should be proud,  Stay strong and dont look back, youve made it to a place where thousands if not millions want to be.

[worried878]

For sure..like josh said..so many here only yearn to be in ur spot..20 days is huge!  over the physical part///gotta take care of the mental part of this ordeal...but sounds like u have a plan...keep uus posted

[LadySundown]

CONGRAULATIONS!!
I know how hard it is to come off the fentanyl patches. I'm so happy that you were able to do it. You're a different person that the woman I talked to when you first posted.

Hug yourself for me....lol

LS

[TurningANewLeaf]

Hello and thank you very much for the kind words.  I really appreciate it as this has been by far the hardest thing I've gone through....  If not for all the kind people posting today and even a long time ago, I really don't think I would have made it through to the other side.  I will not soon forget why I quit the patch and to never make that mistake again.  Let alone putting something on my body that I didn't know anything about.

Bette, honestly I don't know anything about that drug.  I do know there are people here that do though.  Maybe go back to the forum and click post a question and you will get responses that way.  Best of luck to you!

[gnarly_1]

hey girlee just wanted to congratulate you on 20 days...those patches are hard to kick from what I have read on here and im shure just like any narcotic its been a grind getting free...I do a lot of reading on here late at night and have been following your story its good to see people fighting on the front lines and winning so many try and fail..now you got over the physical part it the mental that will come at you now...so do yourself a favor and get involved with some sort of aftercare ...you don't want to go thew this again and
aftercare will make or break ya...N/A is good as is a substance abuse conslor just put something in place this is one battle you don't want to try and go it alone.....keep fighting the good fight and stay strong you will make it...your already there now all you got to do is stay there...good luck and God bless...Gnarly  

[pharma9]

You are AMAZING..you have reached 20 days and I have followed your progress from the beginning.You have hung on and accomplished an enormous task and done it with strength and determination.
That strength and determination will radiate to others around you and to your children.
We are proud of you and your new attitude in life.