A new day

[Myownstrength]

It's my first full day with vicodin.  I'm scared about the side effects of withdrawal but since this will be my third attempt to finally rid myself of the drug.  I no longer need it even though during the withdrawal my body will mimic the pain... Very tricky...  My biggest fear is length of time sine I have to be "on" at work.  I meet with clients all day (usually 10 hour days). But if not now when my resolve is strong then when?

My second fear is who will I be after I'm off.  I've taken it for so long will I be as productive?  Will life be more enjoyable?  I must think so deep in my heart since the voice to quit comes from that same place.

I will post how it goes since so many others have encouraged me with there stories (a few scared the crap out of me as well).

Here's to breaking the chain!

A new day

[Dav125]

The diarrehea should not be a lingering issue of the wd's at this point. It may be a leftover of that flu or bug as I had it come back at me when I was sick for a couple days..Try some immodium,,, it really helps. This darn insomnia is whats giving me a fit right now. I still can't seem to get more than an hour at a time with sleep. Hopefully I'm getting close to that changing though as all the right things are lining up for a long night's sleep, but am not quite there yet...

The days are adding up for sure :) Today is 14 for me..Another milestone.

[Myownstrength]

I am amazed!  I just never really thought  that I could do this and yet here we are!  Yesterday I only thought about v in the morning as a passing thought about how much more time I have to spend on other things!  

Tonight I'm going with friends to a play and it's the first time in 6 years that I am not worried about being caught without the drug.  Now the diarrhea is another thing...  Please tell me that is going to ease up.

One month is just around the corner!!!

[Dav125]

Sounds like the same bug that got me and the kids. Glad it was a 24 hr thing for you too :).

Days are adding up,,aren't they? Almost two weeks here for me..A month ago I would have never believed I'd be at this point again so soon..Feels good :)

[Myownstrength]

I'm back!  Thank goodness the illness lasted only a day!  I did have a moment this morning where I thought one little pill would make me feel like getting to work and then I went to shower and pushed it out of my mind.  I am so glad that I did that since I got better and better as the day went on.  By the end of the day I was almost to my old self.  Made me think that had I given in I would not be getting over my illness but restarting this whole journey again.  

So... Another successful day - congratulations dav on yours!!  

Tomorrow another day!

[Dav125]

I had a 24 hr stomach virus hit last Thurs so know what you mean..Complicated things some but got by it..Still struggling with sleep but doing the best I can to stay mildly active during the day even though I feel like a zombie at times and want to nap..Itried napping once and that made things worse

..Yes, a month is in sight. It will be here soon enough...Can't wait :)

[Myownstrength]

Still in there with you - I've caught the flu (yeah) but I'm not faltering!  Will check in tomorrow.  We can make a month!