ANXIETY about WD

[conhall]

I have so much anxiety about WD I feel like I am sabotaging I have been crying so much last two days just trying to wrap my head around this. I havent even started yet!  I feel so ashamed of myself i am so weak. I know this is going to happen it has to. I am so worried about how it will feel if I can hide it when i should just be concentrating on recovery. I am all over the place.  My day 1 will be on Sunday working that day and then having days 2 and 3 off possibly calling in day 4 i dunno But I am the boss so I have to make up something believable Its got me so anxious.
MY DOC id percs i take about 20 5 mg demons a day sometimes less 15 . I have been lurking on this forum for past week sometimes posting but today i have been in bed all day crying I am so scarred please pray with me. I know i am going to have to reach deep and I just want to Thank you all in advance  ((((group Hug))))

[vicki595]

Hi Honey-  I agree with Pat and ImDONE. Try to talk with your boyfriend, you need the support and, honestly, our secrets keep us sick.

Try not to psych yourself out over this. Often times it's not as bad as we imagine!!

[Dane74]

Oh my you sound just like i did when i first decided i had to stop the demons.  First of all you are not weak, you are very strong and you came to the right place and reached out for help, that just shows me that your strong!  Don't over think it, everyone is different with the wd's.  Just take it day by day sometimes hour by hour.  Listen to the others about telling your boyfriend, would you tell him God forbid if you had another disease?  Addiction is real, and i am sure with some knowledge your boyfriend will understand and be able to support you.  The truth shall set you free!  Best of luck to you.

[conhall]

I have been having alot of anxiety I have been doing massive taper taking it way down.  I am maybe getting 4 hrs sleep came home today after long work day which was insane to do  made myself do things went outside just walked so I wouldnt take a pill. Monday is day 1 coming up. I am down to 6 pills today I was taking 15-20  5 mg percs   I need to get some of that protein amino acid drink any suggestions I had someone tell me what kind but honestly my brain doesnt remember . This is o hard but I can do this I have to. I just think of all the things I have messed up on and Now I want to take my life back Its Mine not the lil demon pills Its mine

[conhall]

I keep saying monday will be day 1 but actually reading Sunday should be because I have mon and Tues off ?? any thoughts and also I am feeling I will need weds and thurs off I need to tell a whopper of a reason to call in I just feel going to work for me would be a huge mistake I am in front of customers all day taking care of them I might just go off! UGGGGG

[Pat1956100]

How many pills are you taking a day now?

[Pat1956100]

Okay I just read you said you were down to 6 pills today.  You are probably already starting to feel some withdrawals and maybe that is why you are so depressed.   I think starting Sunday is a good idea.