Day 4 of ZERO pills is huge!! If you choose to succeed....you will and you can do this! Don't feed your mind what you don't want to grow. Keep it occupied, not idle, and don't allow yourself to dwell on how bad it is. It want always be this way. Each NEW day brings a new 24 hr period. And the rewards will come.
"Normal.....is just a setting on your clothes dryer!"
Having pills in a safe and your brain knowing you still have a "source" is
like writing yourself a prescription for relapse. The reality that we all hate is knowing we must live thru the nasties to get to the goodies. Addiction is cunning, baffling and powerful. Your brain will always lie to you because that's what addict's brains do! We all wish we could "go back" to dosing a small and "as prescribed" amount of pills. Some feel that just have to "test" that. I KNOW I can't. That's what my status means "Once you are a pickle, you can NEVER go back and be a cucumber". Do I say outloud a lot still......when I'm hurting..."man, I wish I could take lortabs the way "normal" people do!!" Yes, I do say that. But I CAN'T. We simply cannot un-do what addiction has done to our brain/bodies.
L-Tyrosine is a much better option than energy drinks. If you're on an AD (antidepressant) you might want to read up on it some more. I drink a fabulous powder packet called Emergen-C. It has Vit C, all the B vitamins, all the essential minerals and electrolytes in it.
You've come a long way already......hope you will get rid of your pills and your souce, put road blocks in place to insure your Success007!!
Blessings to you~
Energy drinks make the symposiums worse!
There is no magic solution. Eating well and drinking water (fluids in general) work best. Thomas recipe helps, that's on bottom of main page
But energy drinks will make you feel worse
Wait, what? You still have pills?
Sounds like you are doing great. Today is day 5 off norco for me. The most emotional so far. Hang in there. It really hit me about the mirror. I expect to look different...but I don't. Just strange. Stay strong. Keep posting! Get out of the house. I hear the l-tyrosine helps with energy, but haven't tried it. Too far for me to drive right now. Good luck!
I thought after 24 days of tapering would cut it, now I feel mental and even paranoid and keep telling myself " no one knows I'm freaking out , no worries". The mental part is the hardest for me. I guess power drinks amp me up and I feel alive like Percs did. Is it like trading one drug for another, but easier stopping power drink than Percs. When I force myself out I feel better. That's when I can bring myself too it. My worse day was day 6 lowering dose, then once a week a horrible night sleep.
Normal would be the old me before my Percs. I did write down hat and when. 1yr9 mo of 20 mg than short time on 40-50mg, then 1. 1/2 yrs of 75 mg. ..at times I wish I stayed at 20 mg a day. But that's gotta be denial talking. Motivated without oxy,,, thus far it's power drink. I bought many vitamins. What vitamin made u feel best, maybe I'm missing something someone knows. Also with 120 odd pills in the safe and my source...it's not over till I miss that mid dec appointment, I guess. I just want my life back. I look at myself in the mirror and without the euphoria, I look different. A real mind game. This meds horrible, live such a lie own it , so sad. I love this place.
Lynn
I think about putting myself out of misery, fearing relapse. Did energy drinks help anyone. That's how desperate I got. Redline tiny bottle, drank half and it brought me to life, so it feels. Now I want a dozen of them to live each day as needed. Bad idea. What did ya"all take, that worked best. I love this site. Helps me a lot.
Lynn
Well Normal is a relative question as to I dont know exactly what NORMAL is, But for me a turning point when I felt my energy really starting to get back on track was at about day 10. That was the first day I remember feeling REALLY alive again!
COngrats on Day 4!