Ahhh I just wanna let loose!!

[Sweetness91]

Not sure why..but the last few days I have just wanted to let loose. I wanna get outta my own head and skin. I'm usually a pretty conservative gal. I don't really like for ppl to look at me and I do not ever draw attention to myself. But sometimes I do want to go out with my husband and dance and laugh like we used to. But I can't so that now that I'm sober. Why is that? I don't dance in front of ppl because I feel like everyone is watching..I don't like that stuff. I get by...I do what I need to do for everyone involved, and that's just how it is. But sometimes I wanna let loose, but it seems like I can't do it unless I have a few in me. But I know that's not even logical, so I always refrain. And I'm always the one who sits by and watches everyone else having a good time, the one who is always the designated driver. Ugh...it's not right...and it's not fair. :(. Just really frustrated and it's too late to call a friend to vent. Sobriety is awesome...it really is, but sometimes it ***** a$$.

[lulu747]

PS.  I was always the DD too.  I remember one night I got pulled over by the cops at a road block after I'd dropped everyone off.  They asked me where I'd been and I replied "DANCING!" They asked if I was drinking and I said that no I was in recovery and the designated driver.  The cop high fived me and sent me on my way.  He also said GOOD FOR YOU!!  Not gonna lie, it felt AWESOME.

[lulu747]

Hey Sweetness-
Wanted to tell you that I NEVER danced so free and crazy as I did the first year I got sober.  I would go out with my girlfriends to the bar and they would all be drinking and I would drink club soda.  I would dance until I was pouring sweat.  Every weekend.  It was such good stress relief.  I love dancing and miss it so.  I actually never really drink when I go dancing.  Even in the past I would have a drink before we went out but once we were out I was too busy dancing and guzzling water (:  I also went back to dancing professionally at the age of 34.  My career had ended at 21 when I broke my tailbone in 3 places.  But being sober inspired me to do so many things...One of them being to dance!  So I started a burlesque style dance troupe and traveled around doing shows in my spare time (:  IT WAS SO LIBERATING!!
You should try it!!!  There is no better high than that.  Except maybe runner's high.  But my knees are too f*cked to do that anymore):
xoxo
Lu

[dominosarah]

You will get more comfortable in your skin as time goes on and you will loosen up and then you will dance like noone is watching~

[jifmoc]

Sweetness- I'm glad you posted that. I know exactly how you feel.

This is just a thought. I wonder if you wanting to "get outta your head" is really about something else bothering you. You know, that restless, irritable and discontent feeling they talk about in meetings? I wonder if we are just uncomfortable in whatever feelings. Whether it's lack of excitement (I have a huge problem w/ that one), stress etc. Just a thought that came to me.

Or, like Gnarly said maybe you just need to dance your arse off!

[gnarly_1]

Hey girl good to see you post   great to see you post clean....I to get that wild hair up my kester ....N/a has a dance every friday here in phoenix first it is a speeker meeting then the dance floor is a hoppin you can have fun being clean the drugs just dropped our inhibitions once you overcome your fears you can have a blast  we even went tubing on the salt river it is a lazy pace for 3 hours  but the people in our groups know how to have fun I already got my tickets to the new years eve dinner and dance it will be a blast  we have a lot of good hummored people one laff after the next and we all stay clean  for me I dident start to laff again until I got to N/A it has taken a wile but I feel right at home with my ''peeps'' from the groups so get out there and ''cut a rug'' it is ok to have fun again it is good for you

[VICourageous]

Hi Girl..
Well the ones that you think are having fun as they get drunk or high have to pay for it the next day and you do not!!! Remember it is only a Temporary fix with a long term repair..Not worth it..
Just go out and let your hair down and dance the night away. I used to be a professional dancer and did many, many dances in plays and at some other going ons. I have NO Problem dancing. I do draw attention but I do not on purpose. I was just born a dancer and the steps and moves just come in freely. Sometimes it will make me blush when people come up and remark but Dancing has been in my blood..You should see me dance around the house when a song really hits me..Look out there goes the leg kicking and the turning around & around..I need a bigger place.

Girl I had my best times at some AA dances in the past and I mean way past. Like in my younger days. Also we danced at a AA/NA benefit last Year and I can not wait for the next one. I love it when the Bands play as I grew up around all kinds of musicians and some made it big. SO DO NOT worry about others..BE HAPPY and DANCE the NIGHT AWAY and then go home and dance with the hub with some romantic music..

Other then that!!! I am sure Life has been good to You, Hub and your Kids. Be happy that you are able to be with them in mind, body and soul as they grow up..I sure do miss you but at least you do wave in and out like most of us these days..Be Safe and Be Good..
Have a Good Night. lol I was just thinking about you today and when we first met. It should almost be 2 years for you too within 3 to 4 months??
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