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Buying vicodin online
Has anybody had success buying Vicodin or opiates online? I don't want to get into any type of legal trouble and am also concerned about getting ripped off.
I've closed the door with my doctor, but am still suffering through withdrawal and feeling flat and helpless. I've been addicted for several years and can't seem to function without them. Part of me wants to stop so bad and part of me doesn't. I don't know if I'm ready for abstinence. I'm a single mom with no co- parenting and feel constantly overwhelmed and inadequate.
Any help or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated. I've been lurking on here for about a week and this is my first post. It seems people are so supportive and understanding. Please help!
I've closed the door with my doctor, but am still suffering through withdrawal and feeling flat and helpless. I've been addicted for several years and can't seem to function without them. Part of me wants to stop so bad and part of me doesn't. I don't know if I'm ready for abstinence. I'm a single mom with no co- parenting and feel constantly overwhelmed and inadequate.
Any help or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated. I've been lurking on here for about a week and this is my first post. It seems people are so supportive and understanding. Please help!
Thank you so much for your kind words Debbie. I have been through this before and know that you are right.
Listen, I didn't mean my post to necessarily be tough love - I just wanted to somehow reach out to you over the net and try to get you to understand the heartbreak and self-lothing that is waiting for you if things don't change.
I will be honest, I would gladly go through my last detox (hell on earth) once a week if I could go back and, say, be at my daughter's kindergarden Christmas play instead of at the ER telling lies about my bad back. Or be on the family weekend ocean campout instead of opting out because of the "flu" (withdrawal). And the list goes on. Until my youngest left and I looked around and realized that my children's childhood was gone, I had no idea how broken I'd be. In NA and AA meetings, most talk about if you get clean you do it for yourself. As a parent, I have to disagree...If you get clean you do it for the most important thing in life, our children.
K
I will be honest, I would gladly go through my last detox (hell on earth) once a week if I could go back and, say, be at my daughter's kindergarden Christmas play instead of at the ER telling lies about my bad back. Or be on the family weekend ocean campout instead of opting out because of the "flu" (withdrawal). And the list goes on. Until my youngest left and I looked around and realized that my children's childhood was gone, I had no idea how broken I'd be. In NA and AA meetings, most talk about if you get clean you do it for yourself. As a parent, I have to disagree...If you get clean you do it for the most important thing in life, our children.
K
Please accept my apologies for the title of this thread; I've just felt super desperate. The fact that I was even considering it, shows how much work I have to do.
Thank you for the tough love; I know I need it and I'm sorry you suffered for so long. I was raised by a mentally ill mother and have had no role models. I had no idea parenting would be so difficult and I have no co-parenting to speak of. I know I'm on the pity pot a bit, but I also know I have to break the cycle so the same thing doesn't happen to my daughter. I know I have to be strong and be the parent she deserves. I have loved the numbness and floaty feeling so much, relied on it as an escape; but it's time to be real. I don't want to be a shell of a person and you're exactly right; that's what I've become.
Thanks to all; so grateful for the strength and hope.
Thanks to all; so grateful for the strength and hope.
My friend was buying them and having them sent next door to an abandoned house 3 months later I came home and swat was on the roof of his house, he went to prision hes done 4 years and has 1 left this is hopefully this was his rock bottom
I suggest getting clean...
but if you cant best of luck
I suggest getting clean...
but if you cant best of luck
" Part of me wants to stop so bad and part of me doesn't. I don't know if I'm ready for abstinence." That statement says it all. Add to that the fact that you're even considering buying meds online AND you are continuing to put your addiction before your daughter...I'd say that you are in a very dangerous spot, even with 7 days clean.
You've been through this before; you know that all your questions, all of your postings are moot IF you are listening to your head - that tiny voice that seems to be winning, convincing you that you can't be a good mother without the pills. And you know that it's all BS.
I cannot stress enough the damage that you're doing; and I don't mean the physical crap that happens to your body every time you open your mouth and take a pill. I'm talking about the mental and emotional damage...I used for over 15 years. My kids are 18, 20 and 25. You do the math. I missed so much of their lives - important milestones that I wasn't there for because I was either going through withdrawals or out chasing the dragon. Fast forward to about two months ago. My youngest went off to college - they are all at school. And suddenly it hit me - I can never get those years back...they're gone. I can't put in to words the heartbreak and guilt that I feel. I can't change the past. If you keep this up, if you keep listening to your lies and buying your addict BS, one day (and man does the time pass quickly) you'll wake up, your daughter will be in college, married, whatever, and you'll feel the heart break, and regret. It's not too late. STOP PUTTING YOUR ADDICTION BEFORE YOUR DAUGHTER. Your initial question is really meaningless.
You are 7 days clean, pretty much over the bad physical symptoms. Now comes the dangerous mental battle. Finally, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Living clean is wonderful. It will allow you to be the parent your daughter needs, not some false shell of yourself.
K
You've been through this before; you know that all your questions, all of your postings are moot IF you are listening to your head - that tiny voice that seems to be winning, convincing you that you can't be a good mother without the pills. And you know that it's all BS.
I cannot stress enough the damage that you're doing; and I don't mean the physical crap that happens to your body every time you open your mouth and take a pill. I'm talking about the mental and emotional damage...I used for over 15 years. My kids are 18, 20 and 25. You do the math. I missed so much of their lives - important milestones that I wasn't there for because I was either going through withdrawals or out chasing the dragon. Fast forward to about two months ago. My youngest went off to college - they are all at school. And suddenly it hit me - I can never get those years back...they're gone. I can't put in to words the heartbreak and guilt that I feel. I can't change the past. If you keep this up, if you keep listening to your lies and buying your addict BS, one day (and man does the time pass quickly) you'll wake up, your daughter will be in college, married, whatever, and you'll feel the heart break, and regret. It's not too late. STOP PUTTING YOUR ADDICTION BEFORE YOUR DAUGHTER. Your initial question is really meaningless.
You are 7 days clean, pretty much over the bad physical symptoms. Now comes the dangerous mental battle. Finally, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Living clean is wonderful. It will allow you to be the parent your daughter needs, not some false shell of yourself.
K
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