Everything you wrote is why Alanon was started. My daughter attends Alanon and she has been given a new lease on life dealing with an addict. The growth she has shown is amazing and she has found more peace within herself. She loves her meetings with these people and comes away with something new everytime.
You have alot on your plate right now and you do need to sort out what you are feeling. You cant save him or even throw consequences out there as he has to stop on his own. All you can do is take care of you. It is very hard to be in a relationship where one has cleaned up and the other is still using. Alanon will be really good for you given your circumstances. Please dont rush to the alter until there is some serious changes taking place with you both. I know you love him but this all comes down to you saving you and you loving yourself first and foremost. Never sacrifice your clean time for anything. You have such a kind heart and hopefully he will see your actions speaking louder than your words.
Alanon iis for the family/loved ones of the addict. It would do you alot of good to go. We can never get enough help/knowledge with addiction. When we are close to the one addicted it becomes much harder to separate our emotions which in turn becomes enabling at it's finest. You can also be a huge help to those who attend as you will see the enabling that is going on not to mention all the excuses the addict gives the family. It is a win win for you to attend!!
Knowledge is power when it comes to addiction. I would check out Alanon in your area. The biggest thing with helping an addict is learning how NOT to enable them. Alanon is a wonderful group and those people all have a loved one who is an addict.
Hi there, I think it is great you want to help. What questions do you have?
Others will be a long soon, Dee