I started when I left Uiversity.
I tried it with friends at home.
I had to leave Uni due to funds.
You will never stop.
Dont blame the person that started you, the reason.
It makes no difference.
Just quit.
Its not worth it.
If you can go to work evryday (yay)..if you can (hide from your fam) yay.
You know.
Just stop.
If you cant stop...call someone.
No one knows I do it.
I called someone.
Its ****.
Please..call someone you dont know.
Goodluck.
K.
I meant to say keeping my coke addiction a secret was lethal for me.
Welcome to the forum. This is an older post so feel free anytime you want to create your own question, but i wanted to respond to this.
First of all cocaine does damage the heart and nervous system unlike most other drugs, i created a health page on the effects of cocaine, but you can also google it to see the damage it causes. Since the heart is a muscle and cocaine makes your heartbeats so much faster it is being worked more and will get larger just like a muscle. The good news is that it can heal, but sometimes heart attacks happen first so i would suggest you make a serious commitment to this if you want to quit. As addicts it is SO important to get involved in some type of support group to stay clean. Coke cravings are very powerful and you will need to learn tools how to beat them. Keeping my coke addiction was lethal for me because it allowed me to keep using even though I didn't want to. If you ever need to talk send me a pm or feel free to post a question. Best of luck.
How much and how often are you using now?
I have been using coke for 2 years now. At first it was very rare...I never craved doing it and I would only do it if it was offered at a party or the bar. I never paid for it so I didnt "have" a problem in my eyes. I have past drug use, I did "Acid' for a while when I was 14 and 15 and then I quite everything until I was 19. Then I found exstacy and mushrooms and that was a year and a half of crazyness. Then quit everything again, oh wait then I found effedrine.....but I thought it was a vitamine cause I purchased it at my gym, and that almost killed me. My liver was over loaded but I did survive thankfully! Then after a year of being basically healthy and drug free I moved across the country to a big city and I met some new freinds. I'm in my late 20's and Ive been gradually doing coke more and more over 2 years now. I know its bad and I hate that I do it trust me. I'm at the quitting stage now, just starting... and Ive quit smoking after 8 years back in 2002 so i know I have the will power to quit coke. What I'm worried about, is my heart, my nervous system, my life span......I'm trying to not do coke, I'm working out with a personal trainer and i'm eating healthy. I'm afraid i'm gonna drop dead suddenly every time I work out because of my entire past drug use. I cant tell my Doctor because I think he's the kind of person that would judge me, I cant tell my trainer because I'm deeply ashamed and I wont admit my bad habbits to any family or close friends because I cant bare to see thier dissapointment. My true friends from where I grew up would be so angry at me and even though I have my boyfriend to talk to, he's now a heavy coke user and its all my fault because I wanted to do it and he just went along for the ride. ah I feel like I'm just whineing> spelling sorry
I work in a hospital ER. We had a homeless man in last week who had been snorting cocaine for far too long. When we were checking him out, we noticed he had something funny in his mouth. After a closer look, we realized that this man had done so much cocaine that his soft and horizontal palates were dissentegrated. (That is, the roof of his mouth, and the tissues connecting the nose to the throat were not there anymore.) This man was so addicted to cocaine that he molded a chunk of surfboard wax to rebuild his palate. With the aid of his wax-rebuilt mouth, he could continue using cocaine. So sad... Super clever remedy, but what a terrible drug!
Really it isn't sore at all..nothing hurts nor is there any pain.
Only thing i see is the dent on the side of the nostril and the "caving in " where the nostril starts right by the cheeck.That is what has me freaking out.I really hope it gets back to normal.
But like i have said,i have been clean for 2 months and plan on staying that way.
I know you said this is an old post but i don't know how to make a new post since i'e new here.I left you a pm in your box.