4 days 11 hours clean

[Pjtwenty]

Wow it has been tough.  I not only have to deal with wd but I am dealing with a cold too.  Yes it is a cold as well the whole house has it.  To be honest if I were to be offered a pill right now I would snatch it in a second.  That is bad I know but the is just being honest.  Don't worry I do not have any access.  I really never knew anybody to get them from I always managed to get them from dr's and occasionally some co-workers.  Plus I don't have a dollar to my name right now.
This is definately the toughest thing I have dealt with my whole life.  I feel like I am not sure I really want to stop.  Is this a normal process.  It's like I want to quit but I still think, it's not that big of a deal you can quit another time.  Maybe I am just in a dark spot right now I don't know.  Being sick is not helping either.  
But for those out there on their first day or 2 it does get a LOT better on day 3.  Atleast it did for me.
Well thanks for listening.

[gnarly_1]

HI congrats on 4days 11hrs your threw the thick of it now......I often say this is 1/3 physical and 2/3 mental...never to play down the physical but more so to prepare you for the mind games like your having now.....your addiction is going to tell you every lye in the book to get you to use again its often suttle like one more wont hurt....or there will be a better time to quit....its not really a problem in my life...the list goes on and on for right now fight the urge
to use....as soon as your well enough get out to a meeting and fight back.....aftercare is the only thing I know that will quite these voices in your head...it will teacvh you the skills and tools with how to deal with things like cravings .....theirs not one of here that hasn't had a moment and questioned '''is it really worth it''...but you can get past it and YES it is so so worth it not being chained to a pill bottle...remember detoxing is just the beginning you will work on your sobriety the rest of your life.....I wish you all the best in your recovery good luck and God bless......Gnarly      

[jeffclowns]

just hang in there Pjtwenty you got 4 days under your belt the worst of the w/d's should be almost over so hang in there and just try to do something to get those evil little devil pills off your mind. tomorrow i hit my 30 day mark and i like the way it feels now and not always worried about that next pill ,you got to just put the pill-head days behind you and move forward in your recovery i wish you the best and god bless.Jeff....

[LeaAnn807]

My first thought when I read your post.....

Sure, you can quit another time, if you live.  I have ODd more than once, and I never did it on purpose.  I just got greedy, and I wanted to be "more high", if that makes sense.  The more I had, the more I took and the sicker I was when it was over!

Try to think in terms of how it ruined your life and how bad it was instead of talking yourself into taking them again, because you can quit another time.  You may not have another time in you????  

Good luck!  And congrats on 4 days.  Those are four ROUGH days!!! : )

[throwindatowl]

You know I have the same issues. I can and have quit when I needed to. Thats not it though. Think about whats up with the pills. I mean alot of people get caught up not really even knowing about wds.  I can see you want to quit. You also like getting high. You wont and cant have a good life and use pills. Thats reality. Those pills ruin lives. Im fighting for mine. You gotta fight for yours too! Think back to when you didnt take pills. Was your life better? Thanks for writing! That drug takes peoples self worth and belief in themselves-dont let it do that to you.  Congrats on day 4. Hey being broke has lead to many people realizing this aint working. When you dont have a dollar, it hurts pretty bad.
Sorry ya got sick sick too but your closer to a week than a day!!  This is a hard thing to battle. The pride youll get by fighting the fight, not saying we all win the fight. Just show up to fight-all ya gotta do. The next few days maybe emotional so be prepared. If ya cry alot its just another way your body gets rid of that drug. Please dont let that drug control your life and mind. Ill try and do the same. I truely know just how hard this whole circus is. Its just a crazy circus.