I'm new to this site. I just want to say that everyone's story is very close if not exactly what I've been going through. I've been on Norco's for about 2 years, it amazes me how quickly the addiction begins. I remember starting with just one a day, now I'm up to 10-12 a day. I feel so embarrassed! It is hard for me to admit it, I try to justify it everyday I take them. My doctor has prescribed me 150 pills a month, needless to say that does not last a whole month. I want to quit, in fact now is probably a good time because I'm on day 3 of withdrawals. I have severe allergies that give me migraine type headaches. I'm afraid of the pain from the headaches and sit and think what am I going to do? How am I going to feel better? I've tried to have my mom keep them, but she would give them to my sister (who is also addicted to Vicodine, Norcos, and Ambien). Then I tried a locked box, this seemed to work a bit but eventually it was no use. I've tried giving my dad the lock box, but I had access to his "mancave", again useless. I guess I'm wondering if there is a happy medium, okay so this may be a stupid question. I see people out and about, people on tv and think "wow they look so happy, they have such energy, and look like they enjoy life" I want that! I feel like the people on the migraine commercials. Maybe this is the withdrawals talking. I have such anxiety thinking about completely cutting myself off from the Norcos. It scares my mom because my brother died at the age of 36 from using drugs while having Congestive Heart Failure. My mom and one of my sisters are the only ones that don't have addictions. It comes from my dads side of the family I guess. My dad is an alcoholic, my brother meth, alcohol, pot, and whatever else he could get his hands on. My little sister is the one mentioned above, the funny thing is my little sister and I both live at home with my parents, thanks to this economy, so it's not the easiest of places to try to be sober. I want to try one more time to see if I can control this, I'm thinking about having the combination changed on the lock box so that my father is the only one that has it and have him dispense my daily allowance. I've found that I package my daily pills in little baggies I bought and it is wonderful, I just one baggie out and I don't have to worry about dispensing them twice a day to myself (anti depressants, gagnabetin, prilosec). I know I've been rambling on, but it feels so good to get this off my chest. Please feel free to tell me how stupid my plan sounds, or if someone has any suggestions. I guess I just want to feel normal!