I have been dealing with addiction for over ten years now. Not with just one drug, but with several. I started with Xanax and other nerve pills in high school, then after I quit abusing those, I began my addiction to cocaine. After a short while of living clean, I found crack cocaine and was addicted to that for over 3 years. I once again became clean and now I have found myself abusing codeine and oxycodone. The crack cocaine has also made another appearance in my life, recently. I am seriously trying to live a normal, drug-free life, but I have lost all sense of hope of that ever happening. I don't have insurance, so it's not as if there are a lot of clinics available for me. I am dealing with SEVERE depression and I even think I am bi-pilor (it could just be the drugs, though). I am scared to finally admit it to a healthcare professional because I am in the nursing program at a local university and I don't know if any kind of record of drug abuse would interfere with my schooling/job placement. I have every desire in the world to be clean. I want to be a nurse. I want to live a happy, normal life, but I don't know how to go about treating my problems. I know I probably need a therapist, and possibly medication. I just don't know where to turn first.