Day 2, in WD, won't go back

[Cassie415]

Hi everyone, I am trying again to stop using oxycontin. For some people who have seen me say this a million times I know you might be sick of me or think I am not actually going to do it, but all I can say is i'm trying again. I am really determined to do this. I am going to get sober this time and make it out on the other side and finally experience life clean. I am going to find new ways to find happiness, because I know oxycontin is just filling some kind of void and it is just artificial happiness that leaves me sick and deathly feeling. I have found a volunteer program that works with kids here, which is what I love to do, and so I am joining it. I'm going to find new ways to fill my time and new things to be interested and passionate about. I want to be clean and happy for these holidays and spend them with my family and not be on drugs. I am not going to waste away anymore and barely live my life. I just want to feel real happiness in myself and my life. Today is day 2, I am very sick, but making myself get up and walk to school has helped. Thank you everyone that constantly helps me and doesn't give up, it means so much. So here goes, i'm trying again.

[Cassie415]

yeah, I can't wait for the night I just fall asleep and wake up feeling so good and rested and excited for my day. you guys are right and usually I have sleeping meds for the bad nights like last night but I just couldn't keep anything down so it was pointless. Today feels better. thanks everyone.

[bmdad]

Sorry you couldn't get some sleep. For me that's one of the worst parts. The constant tossing and turning and just wanting to scream drives me nuts! You should start getting some sleep soon. In the past after the first week I was able to get about 4 to 5 hours a night. After I hit about 2 weeks my sleep was just about back to normal. Just keep up the great fight and your body will be back to normal in no time!

[10356]

Day 5 cassie !! I'm so proud of you !! sleep will come just try to stay active and go about your day.. it will not always be like this. Your first night sleep without drugs feels so damn good and refreshing and to wake up not sick just rejuvenated it the bomb !! I swear cass after all this time I still get a thrill that I can wake up and not need a thing except coffee lol to feel good !! and I have found clean the process of falling to sleep is enjoyable so give it time ok. I hope your headache and earache is clearing up the ear probably hurts from your sinus being blocked.. love ya lesa

[Cassie415]

thanks guys. its 5am here....i dont think ill be getting any sleep tonight, its been a long night.

[jvette]

Cassie I'm 22. Feel free to shoot me a message if you need anything! I've been where you're at..

[Revann]

this is kevin, the guy that you are talking to on my forum topic. cassie you have really been helpful to me in trying to quit this. and i think that you and me can work on it together. i was talking to someone today that was addicted for 3 years, quit and now has been off of it for 5 years. and she has a family, a job, a house. i know you feel like the withdrawals will never go away... i know because its day 3 for me. and i think we can do this. yes it is hell, and once you go threw it you will become a better person. with a better understanding of live.

so hang in there, im here for you
if you want my phone number so we can talk each other threw this
just message me

we can do it