Day 2, in WD, won't go back

[Cassie415]

Hi everyone, I am trying again to stop using oxycontin. For some people who have seen me say this a million times I know you might be sick of me or think I am not actually going to do it, but all I can say is i'm trying again. I am really determined to do this. I am going to get sober this time and make it out on the other side and finally experience life clean. I am going to find new ways to find happiness, because I know oxycontin is just filling some kind of void and it is just artificial happiness that leaves me sick and deathly feeling. I have found a volunteer program that works with kids here, which is what I love to do, and so I am joining it. I'm going to find new ways to fill my time and new things to be interested and passionate about. I want to be clean and happy for these holidays and spend them with my family and not be on drugs. I am not going to waste away anymore and barely live my life. I just want to feel real happiness in myself and my life. Today is day 2, I am very sick, but making myself get up and walk to school has helped. Thank you everyone that constantly helps me and doesn't give up, it means so much. So here goes, i'm trying again.

[struggling_college_student]

Hey cassie.......just back on the boards after 6 months of clean time then a relapse of a few months.  Anyways.....my biggest withdrawal symptom has always been the restless legs at night....the twitching you know.  I found that Hyland's Restful Legs is a great product that works wonders!!  You can find it a Rite-Aid or Walgreens and they just dissolve under your tongue.  As far as falling asleep, I use melatonin and then just put on a movie and if I fall asleep I fall asleep.....if not....another movie!!

Im on day 2 and luckily I wasnt using heavily(I am a Norco addict and before my 6 mos of clean time I used to take about 10 a day) so my WD's arent too bad....just the mental thing your talking about.  I too am in school and am finding that keeping busy with schoolwork is a lifesaver!!  

Congrats on making it this far....you sound determined and that really is the first step!!  You're almost out of the woods and then the real trials start.....staying clean.  I wish you the best!!!

Jeff

[Cassie415]

I didn't sleep last night, not even a minute, and the past few days I haven't been sleeping or eating much. So I don't feel great but it could definitely be worse. Glad to hear you are tapering off and that it is working for you, thanks for checking in with me!

[bmdad]

How are you feeling today Cas? I pray today was better than the last! Keep going strong!

[bmdad]

I'm so happy that you're doing better! Once you can actually say that you know it won't be long and you'll be able to look back and realize that you can do anything if you want it bad enough! I have about 10 days left if I stick to my taper plan. I might try and speed it up a bit more. I woke up this morning and felt great. Any other day I would have woke up and have had a small bit of the withdrawals such as kinda cold, anxiety, the aches, etc. You know what I mean. I always have had to take one right away to "wake up". Today was different though. I woke up and felt fine. I was clear headed and wasn't even craving. I didn't take one until about 3 pm and that was the only one I took today. I think I'm gonna try and do the same tomorrow. I don't want to cut back so much I feel like ****, but I don't wanna take more than I need. I'm afraid if I try and speed it up too fast I might end up back taking them like I use to. I've tapered before so I know what I need to do for my taper program. I always tell people to let their body do the talking. I've already promised myself if I do veer off my taper schedule by taking more, they are getting flushed. I think they may be getting flushed sooner than planned due to the fact that it is working great this time as of now. I'm just anxious to see how I feel tomorrow. That will prove if today was a fluke or not.
Guess I'll just have to wait and see! If only I could sleep better! Why don't you call and read me a bedtime story! Maybe we could write one....Twas the Night Before Withdrawals....
Twas the night before withdrawals and all through my head, thoughts are running wild, God if I could only go to bed...The next verse is yours!........Hope you have a great night and get some zzzzzzz's

[Cassie415]

Thanks for checking in. I am doing much better, and each day I am starting to feel a little better. I cannot sleep at all though, I always have bad insomnia, and even on oxycontin I would take ambiens, now i've run out so I just have to deal with no sleep lol. I have so much catching up to do in school right now, and midterms are a few days away so I figure i'll just study all night if I can't sleep. Eventually I have to pass out at somepoint, just hopefully not during my tests lol

Thanks for all your support, it has really been helpful. How are you doing? Did you say you were almost done with a taper?

[bmdad]

How was you day today? I hope you can get a good nights sleep! I think the lack of sleep is one of the major reasons we have such a lack of energy. I work a union job which requires some physical work at times and even when I was clean I would have no energy on the days to where I didn't get much sleep the night before. I guess it didn't help at that job due to the fact I had to drive over a hour each way, work 12 hours, and 7 days a week. Not everyone of my jobs is like like that. I go from one power plant to another as needed so sometimes they are closer to home and not the long work weeks.
You have been doing awesome at this Cassie! You are so so close to being on the downhill side of all of this. Keep it up and remember that failure is not a option!
Brian

[bmdad]

It will all pass very soon. Day 6 is awesome! Once I hit a week things started to come around and I started feeling much better. Just remember you are so close to getting this devil off your back! Don't let him win! Keep on fighting as it is one of the toughest battles you will ever have to deal with and you are kicking its @ss! Keep going strong Cassie, you are doing great!

[Cassie415]

i had some ambien and trazadone and I have melatonin too and i've been taking nyquil too. Not sleeping is the worst and the restless legs are really annoying too. it is day 6 today, almost a week now, my entire body feels restless and hurts still, i hope it passes soon. Thanks everyone for the help.

[MyBabyGirl668]

What are you taking to help you sleep?  Have you ever heard anything about melatonin?  

[salsinator]

Congatulations to Both Kevin and Cassie - I have been following your posts and it's great how you two are supporting each other along with all of us here on Medhelp.  You both are almost over the hump - keep it up.  I am proud of you both.

[Revann]

i think its only day 3 now, but for some reason i feel good. i got really good sleep last night, and thats all i need. the reason we can not sleep is because of that restless leg thingy. well i found a way to stop it, without pills or sleeping medication. all i did was jog/walk around my block a few times before i went to bed. my legs were to tired to be restless. then head straight to bed after your run, and drink plenty of water. sure depression and the body ache, is still there. but with that good nights sleep last night... i have the strength to go on a couple more days.

[HelpinSD]

You guys are really the best. I am addicted to 5-500 hydrocodone and was taking about 6-8 a day. This is day 2 for me, and I'm already in wd hell. Yesterday, I couldn't stop crying and every time I thought about my family (I'm in CA, they're in IL) I got so homesick and lonely and just lost it!

Today I feel a little better, but I have this anxiety about trying to get to sleep. I know I shouldn't expect to sleep for another couple of days, but every time I've relapsed, the wds were different every time. I don't have a support system--all my friends out here are wrapped up in their own lives, and I can't jeopardize my job by telling people at work. So I'm in this alone...

I can take the physical symptoms, it's the depression and loneliness that kills me every time.

[Cassie415]

yeah, I can't wait for the night I just fall asleep and wake up feeling so good and rested and excited for my day. you guys are right and usually I have sleeping meds for the bad nights like last night but I just couldn't keep anything down so it was pointless. Today feels better. thanks everyone.

[bmdad]

Sorry you couldn't get some sleep. For me that's one of the worst parts. The constant tossing and turning and just wanting to scream drives me nuts! You should start getting some sleep soon. In the past after the first week I was able to get about 4 to 5 hours a night. After I hit about 2 weeks my sleep was just about back to normal. Just keep up the great fight and your body will be back to normal in no time!

[10356]

Day 5 cassie !! I'm so proud of you !! sleep will come just try to stay active and go about your day.. it will not always be like this. Your first night sleep without drugs feels so damn good and refreshing and to wake up not sick just rejuvenated it the bomb !! I swear cass after all this time I still get a thrill that I can wake up and not need a thing except coffee lol to feel good !! and I have found clean the process of falling to sleep is enjoyable so give it time ok. I hope your headache and earache is clearing up the ear probably hurts from your sinus being blocked.. love ya lesa

[Cassie415]

thanks guys. its 5am here....i dont think ill be getting any sleep tonight, its been a long night.

[jvette]

Cassie I'm 22. Feel free to shoot me a message if you need anything! I've been where you're at..

[Revann]

this is kevin, the guy that you are talking to on my forum topic. cassie you have really been helpful to me in trying to quit this. and i think that you and me can work on it together. i was talking to someone today that was addicted for 3 years, quit and now has been off of it for 5 years. and she has a family, a job, a house. i know you feel like the withdrawals will never go away... i know because its day 3 for me. and i think we can do this. yes it is hell, and once you go threw it you will become a better person. with a better understanding of live.

so hang in there, im here for you
if you want my phone number so we can talk each other threw this
just message me

we can do it

[Cassie415]

Also, worried I know you said to get out and do something, but even when I was out doing stuff I just kept like spacing out thinking about all these times.

[Cassie415]

hey guys, thanks for the comments. I spent the afternoon at the bookstore and I bought a book, which i'm excited to read. For some reason I can't stop thinking about OC. Like all my past memories/experiences with it, they are just like swarming my head. I think it's because my roommate is going tonight to get it with the people we usually go and knowing she will be back here with it makes it hard so it's got me thinking of all these old times I used to do it. Times I didn't even know existed. Most of my memories from the past 2 yrs are something to do with drugs and alcohol and now it's all I am thinking about since I am not doing it anymore. DOes this ever happen to anyone else?

[bmdad]

So, what's the big test tonight? Any big parties going on!!! Just kidding. Hope you're are feeling better. Maybe getting out to a movie or something would be a nice break. If you didn't live so far away I'd invite you to a movie with my wife and kiddos! When I was in the Marine Corps I made the drive from Cali to IL a few times and don't plan on driving that far anytime soon! Especially with 2 young kids in the truck so the movie will have to wait! Hope you have a great Saturday evening!
Brian

[desperado57]

Hello everyone... I accidentally came across some information that may be helpful with opiate withdrawal.  My son had sinus surgery yesterday and has been suffering with nausea.  The weekend on-call doctor prescribed Zolfran for the nausea, and while I was researching the drug, I came across this info in Wikipedia:


Opioid addiction
Researchers at the Stanford University School of Medicine have demonstrated that ondansetron might be useful and effective for treating withdrawal symptoms of opioid addictions.[8] Unlike the existing treatments methadone and buprenorphine, it is not itself an opioid.[8] And it doesn't require continued supervision like treatment with clonidine.[8]

The original experiment used mice who were injected with increasing doses of morphine, assayed with naloxone and then underwent haplotypic analysis to isolate a gene candidate.[9] HTR3A which codes for the 5-HT3 receptor emerged as the primary candidate, which suggested 5-HT3 antagonist ondansetron as a possible treatment.[9] The researchers were then able to show using an acute morphine administration model the efficacy in withdrawal symptom control in humans.[9]


I don't know if Zofran had been the subject of discussion before, but I thought I'd throw this out there for anyone who may wish to explore it further.

Best to all....

Sue

[worried878]

reading/staying busy is important right now..i read a book called "a million little pieces" when i was going thru detox...great read on an addicts story..i also read the NA book...but sometimes fun stuff/things u like to read can be better so u can "escape" the knowing u r in wd for a while...staying busy/MOVING/helps...write down the reasons u quit when u crave..post often..u can do this girl!  and i will c u posting here months from now helping others who r where u r at right now

[WDsRawful]

I was off the board and thinking about you so I came here to see if you had posted anything and i'm soooooooo glad to see that you are still on track and doing ok.  I was worried.  You're doing soooo good, girlie.  Stay on track and know that me and everyone else here is pulling for ya.  You're like the forum daughter!  lol   Keep me posted.