Day 2 almost over, no methadone

[kiylen]

Yes, still sick, or sicker.  My emotions are really getting the best of me now.  I just cry constantly I just don't even really know what to think. Right now, I could get up tomorrow morning and go to the clinic, get the methadone and feel fine.  I still I have money there right now.  But I'm not going to do it.  I'm throwing up about every hour right now, headaches, my muscles feel like they are ripping off the bones, haven't slept since Tuesday morning.  I keep wanting to isolate myself and not answer the phone, not get on the computer, not talk to anyone.  I can't believe a legal drug like this, no one tells you what it will do to you.  Even three of the counselors at my clinic said what does methadone withdrawal feel like? Like they are not supposed to know these things!  I just keep praying it will not be as bad as the last time I ct because I am really a mess right now.  I just want people to know what it does to you even coming off a low dose.  I think I'm so depressed because I want my life back right now but I know this will pass in a while.  I'm just leaving it up to God and knowing He'll have the grace to give me strength right now.  

Holliee's post was right.  Everyone on here are just really caring people.  I have had people sending me several messages or calling me and not one person in my family has called me in two days.  Thank you guys for caring.  I should try to post tomorrow, never sure, my hands are really shaking right now and it's hard to concentrate.  I'm just trying to make people really think before thinking this drug will be the answer to their problems.  Eventually you do have to stop at some point in your life and the longer you're on it, the worse it will be.  Just please keep me in your prayers....

[narla]

Kiylin we are all here for you and praying for you.You can do this and we'll all be right beside you all the way.I'll send you all my strength I've just found across the ocean.We can do anything we put our minds to.This is your time! Love you dearly keep with it and I'll be thinking of you 24/7.Big Hugs  Denise

[Holliee]

You can and will make it through this your a very strong person and all of us here are praying for you and keeping you near... We are here if you need us always. Much love and hugs. Hollie

[salsinator]

Kiylen - I saw your post yesterday and know that there are lots of people on here who care about you - can relate to what you are going through, and will help you every step of the way.  Keep moving forward, even if you have to take it one minute at a time, it will be slow, but you will start to feel better soon.  Keep posting and updates, you will be in my prayers.  Take Care

[Dadof5kids1973]

I to kicked methadone twice. the second time was a little harder than the first. The sleep started to come around for me at about the 10 day mark. Take 1 day at a time pray and just know whats at the end of this....YOUR LIFE. I will deff pray for you and put you on our prayer list in bible study. I am back again trying.....no GOING to kick 200mch fentanyl patch now. I have promised my family and myself that I will never abuse a drug again. Keep posting and try to work those muscles that are hurting. My arms and legs are what hurt me so much so I lifted the couch with my legs till they were numb and lifted the vacum to work the backs of my arms till they were numb, It only relieves the pain for a while but i was able to atleast sleep a couple hours here and there. Keep posting and know everyday will start to get a little better.....lots of love and prayers....Ron

[kim715]

Sending you tons of strength and prayers my friend.I'm here for you whatever you need.Much love...Kim