Day 2

[WantTheGoodLifeNow]

I was here back in October, but relapsed after 4 days. I tried a few times in between but never made it past day 4. I am at it again, and want to make it stick. I know what to expect but I am still nervous and scared. I hate detox, absolutely whole heartedly hate detoxing. I just want to feel normal and feel like I will never feel normal. I wish I never took that first pill, I wanna scream and cry at the same time. I am on vacation this week so I figure this is the only chance I have to get thru the worst of it, but man is a pill calling my name. I don't want to think like this but it just takes over my mind. I hate this! Any encouragement would be appreciated. Thanks in advance.

[conhall]

Good for you getting out for those 5 hours You will see each day it does get easier to deal with . Stay strong and keep your head positive.
Just take it one day at a time the physical part is hard I remember ,
I Guess I missed where you said you were camping , I know thats got to be hard but you are doing it so remember you GOT THIS!

[WantTheGoodLifeNow]

I managed to get out n hang out with some of my family today, boy did it feel good not bein trapped in my own head. I was with them for a good 5 hours n now am back at my camper as I need a break. I am doing ok, now that I am back here my legs are restless, n now I am needing immodium. Just gotta keep pushing through with all I got, cause I don't have another detox in me, this really does bite the big one. Hope everyone is having a great 4th of July, I know I am not but atleast I got outside for a little while.

[1sorryperson]

If ur still on the campout, 'walk ur hiney off. do 5 miles'
Also ask the campground gate keeper if there might be an AA meeting in the area, he or she should know, and a meeting of either kind could be an absolute hoot full of vacationers.  Worth asking for.

[WantTheGoodLifeNow]

It's the tail end of day 2 starting day 3 shortly, I am not looking forward to today at all. Tossed n turned all night, RLS like crazy, anxious, I just wanna scream!! I hate this, hate what I have done to myself, am so mad at myself. :( today is not going to be good I can feel it. Please someone pull me out of this... Ugh...

VICouragous I will take a look at your page for sure, thanks again!

[kyle505]

I wasn't suggesting that you tell everyone. That's not necessary. Just trusted friends, family, loved ones. They need to know. They will be a very important part of your on going support system. If I hadn't told my wife I would have relapsed by now. No doubt. I wish you only the best and hope that you don't lie to yourself as long as I did. From the heart.
K

[VICourageous]

Hi Girl, so you are camping? I love to camp. Got lots and lots of places up here where I live.Heck I own property in the woods by the rivers and lakes. I just wanted to share something with you. I have detoxed from the hydos and oxys before too. It seems a lot less tense. I am walking in 10months from a 12 years Methadone ride as well. I went c/t from 3 meds at once. In the beginning from day one I hit meetings all day. My Anxiety was on the moon and I could not sleep for a while. Going out to meetings was the only thing I could do. Then I got so weak that I could hardly walk from one end to the house to the other. I still went to meetings only. You are camping at that brings you out in nature so this is better then being stuck in a four corner room. I went camping in my 40days because of my Anxiety and Sleep. I am cheering for you all the way. Also glad that you have been sticking around on the site.I did put some info about this disease in my Journal that I got from a addiction specialist. I have really learned a lot about this disease and how affects our brain. Check those 2 out. It just might get you on a roll of wanting to know more. I have videos and reading. It has been saving my ash these days too! Besides my meetings and Support in all areas.
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