2nd day off hydro.....

[mustang501]

This is my first post. My wife told me she was going to leave me and take our beautiful boy with her. This scared me to death. My wife has been reading on this site for a week and she tells me that I cant quit for her and i have to quit for myself. I have been taking 10/325 hydrocodone all day long and when i got home from work I would drink a 6 pack of beer and top of the night with Nyquil. In total I was taking about 10 to 12 pills a day. Today is day 2 for me I did not sleep last night, I feel like I have been in hell for 24 hours. I cant stop moving. I cant stay focused on anything. How long do I have to wait until my body stops aching? What is safe for me to take to go to sleep? I want to keep writing on this forum so that I can talk to people that are going through the same things I am. I am in so much pain now. I want to give up ,but after reading about some people that have lost almost everything, I am more scared of losing my family......

[Totsie59]

Today is day 30 clean from Hydro for me..The 1st wk is horrible. Then that fog starts clearing. I agree the wds are enough to make me never put another pill in my body. Hot baths, vits,lots of water and good healthy food..It will get better, one day at a time..just  hang in there..

[merrymaria]

congratulations for getting your life back...as i read your posts i remembered all the horrible things you are going through.  i too was hooked for almost 4 years and towards the end popping 10 a day just to function...not much high at all.  today i am 271 days clean and couldn' t feel better.   just hang in there....as you pass day 5 things will be much better but the mental stuff hangs on for a bit...but just remember you wont have any addition to worry about and that s the best feeling in the world..good luck to you...maria        

[mustang501]

Thank you everyone for your support.  I just wanted to give you an update.  Night 2 was hell, again.  I've taken so many hot baths, I'm affraid to look at my water bill.  I've heard day 4 is the hardest...I'm not looking forward to it.  But more about today, well it was like bad hour, then good hour.  The pain was throughout my whole body.  I have a good support group though.  I have my wife who stayed home from work today to be with me.  I'm still in pain, but I know, or I feel like I'm going to make it.  I'll continue to ask for support.

I've done this with no RX.  I am taking the 5 HTP, mens vitamin pak from GNC, epson baths, benadryl (last night was first night of ben), and chamomile tea. Also, I take advil when the pain is unmanageable.

I can't believe I've made it past day 2.  It seems like it's been a lot longer than 2 days, cuz time drags on with all of the aches and pains.  I'll check back in maybe tomorrow and give you another update.  Thanks again.    

[WDsRawful]

Chamomille Tea is a LIFESAVER.  You can buy it at the corner grocery store.  I usually put 2 tea bags in a full mug of hot water.  It makes you so sleepy.   However, while CTing you probably will sleep hard after the tea but prob for max of 4 hours.  I'm on day 7 off of vics.  Most of the sickness is gone, and the only symptoms left are lethargy and a bit of tightness in my jaw/neck/upper back.  It's uncomfortable for sure, but bearable compared to days 2 and 3.  GOOD LUCK!  Do this for your family!  Do this for you!

[lady67]

I know it sounds crazy, but it is good that you are having a rough time with the withdrawls.  The fact that you "don't want to go through that again" is one of the best deterrents for relapse.  Just always remember how tough it is and it will help steer you away from the pills.  I was addicted to both hydro and ambien (sleeping pills) and believe me it is a vicious cycle.  I was a binge user of the hydros for about 15 years but I was a hard core addict to the sleeping pills for a year.  You definitely do not want to go down that road.  I took the death of my father on January 1, 2008 to give me the wake up call I needed.  I was so strung out on both pills that I don’t remember spending my last Christmas with him.  I made the decision that I was going to do this for me, but also for him.  He spent many hours crying over my addiction problems and I decided getting clean was the only thing I could do for him now.

I am 450 days clean from the sleeping pills and 311 clean from the hydros.  I feel wonderful with my sobriety.  I was numb for so many years and now I am like a new baby experiencing all the things I couldn’t remember.  I am determined to do it this time.  If you ever need anyone to talk to, I am here.  It may be a few days before I get back to you.  I am a teacher and all forums and chat rooms are blocked at school and I have to post at home.  We are in the middle of softball season so I am gone most every afternoon.  Anyway, Good luck and welcome to the forum. ~ Susan

[swandive222]

keep on pushing forward, it can be done!!  i am 41 days clean today and feel great!!  i was taking 16-18 hydrocodone 7.5/500 pills a day.  i went cold turkey 41 days ago and am so glad to be free of the drug!!  it is a battle that can be won!!

make sure to get some vitamin b12 pills and a good multi-vitamin to take daily!!  both of these things will help with giving you energy!!  i don't know what i would have done without the b12!!

for me, i didn't sleep well for about the first 2-3 weeks...  taking tylenol pm or benedryl at night did help a lot though!!  it allowed me to get 5-6 hours of sleep at night.  the first two nights i took a muscle relaxer to help with the restless legs and to get sleep as well.  after those two nights i took the tylenol pm or benedryl.  you can also try nyquil too if that helps you sleep.

the first day of w/d was the worst day for me personally.  the first 7 days was when all of the physical w/d were the worst.  but each day was better than the day before.  when i hit the three week mark i woke up feeling great and almost like my normal self again.  everyday gets better and better!!!

keep going!!  you can do this!!

jessica :)

[dawnb303]

God bless you!  Are you interested in Suboxone treatment?  I know its another prescription but it works wonders!  And you won't have to go through the Hell of withdrawals.

[mustang501]

I am staying away from prescription sleeping pills or any prescription pills.  I am going to do this and I know that I need a support group so I have called my Dad and my Uncle this morning  who have both quit their addictions. It helped alot to talk to them both I cried on the phone and felt like a sissy but it felt better after i cried. I feel ashamed right now and cant honestly tell you on my day two that i wont mess up in the future but i can tell you i  will make it through this next minute without one. My uncle told me i am headed to the graveyard or jail all by myself...I will try to hold on minute by minute or its actually second by second.

[codean]

My drug is different to yours - codeine, but I can empathise with what you're saying. I've been in alcohol treatment so many times that if I admitted to my wife that I am now trying to quitcodeine I'm certain she'd kick me out, so I have to do it alone, which ***** but it's my own fault. I can recommend the Thomas recipe amino acid protocols, they seem to at least stop the worst of the wd, or at least make it bearable. Sleep however, is another matter. I had 4 days no sleep and couoldn't bear it and had a mini relapse last night as a result.Personally, i couldn't bet melatonin, don't know if that's a UK thing but I've been takinga bunch of benzos to try and sleep (risky idea given the addictive nature of them) but to be honest, they haven't helped anyway so I'm thiking what's the point? What's more, I wonder if a large dose of benzos isn't working, what good is herbal ttea going to be? But that's my experience, may not be yours. I disagree slighlty with the above poster in as much as if your doc prescribes a very limited number of sleep pills, maybe that'll be enough to get you through the worst then when they're gone, you can't get any more. Where I do agree is that if you can do it without using more drugs to get over a drug problem, that's got to be better. however, since I feel your pain (having not slept for 4 days myself), I can understand the desire to do anything to get sleep. The most important thing is that whatever you do has to be aimed at binning the drugs, even if somewaht contradicorily that involves using some other drugs temporaily to get there. HOWEVER, try everything else first. Warm milk, melatonin, herbal tea, muscle relaxer whatever. If that doesn't work and you can't bear it, anything has to be better than going back to where you were. Bear in mind I'm a complete novice at this with my first little relapse less than 24hrs ago (therefore others' opinions are maybe more valid than mine)but I just understand how you feel and you have my sympathy and support

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

You might also want to try benadryl for sleep.......its safe and non-addictive - - take plenty of hot showers or baths. Use 800mg ibuprofen for pains. And good luck to you - - I cant even fathom how it would be for the wife to leave and take our son.....Hope can always exist - - you may even be able to salvage things...

[jahollo]

Do not get a prescription sleep aid.. They are addictive as well...Try melatonin or chamomile tea both I believe can be purchased at GNC...Good luck...I really hope the family stays with you and please believe in yourself...I lost my family but you sound more sincere than I was...

[mustang501]

Thank you for writing back to me.  I've been on these pills off and on for the last 4 years.  I've been taking a heavy dosage for the past year.  Yesterday I did it for my wife, today I'm doing it for me.  I don't want to go thru day one again.  I feel like my body is going a 100 different directions, but I can't lose my family.  I just need to keep writing on this forum.  What do you do about the sleep problem???  

[jahollo]

Hang in there..I have quit several times and yes its tough but doable. Your wife is right, you have to do it for you after all its your body and mind..I dont want to sound redundant but I lost about everything and still use but I realize I still have myself and I am quiting for me.  My wife tolerated and supported my efforts to quit 3 times and left after I relapsed the last time..We happened to land a marraige counselor that was hooked on percs and told my wife that the pills will always cause problems in the marraige.. She was right but Im not trying to scare you just tell you some facts..I quit all 3 times for my wife and plan on doing it for myself this time and hopefully I get it right...Good Luck to you...All yeah the body aches lasted me about 4 days...The mental part last much longer but goes away faster if you stay busy.  

[beatingthis]

Welcome! The first step is the hardest. Really sorry about your family thing. Look for Thomas's rescipe I think it on the lower right. It will really help. Your going to feel like you have the flu x10 but it will pass 4 to 5 days. Take plenty of hot baths, showers. Stay calm.
The best thing is get out and walk. You don't have to go far. Just get up and move.
I was on the same drug you were and almost the same amout.Today is day 16 for me. Living proof??? Sleep? Whats that? Ha!! That is the sympton that has hung aroung the longest. Getting bettter.

How long were you on the pills?
Really a bunch of great people here. Hang tuff. You will get through it. One day, 1 hour, 1 min. at a time.

T.