Ok been here before but this time it seems a lot harder and the light is very dim at the end. Its been 2 and a half months since I relapsed into Oxycontin Abuse and the withdrawls are worse than they have ever been. I went to a detox program for 5 days and since I have gotten out I have used only once and I felt so guilty from using it that i started to get ill and violently puking all night, so i knew I cant use again but the withdrawls are so intense, that I can barely think.... Week II and life is an absolute ******* nightmare.... I dont know what to do, and I dont wanna use but I literarlly feel death breathing on me... I am just so tired of being an addict, useless ******* junkie .... I am not gonna use but this depression add a little bit of violent puking, muscle cramps, diarhhea, migraine, stomach pain, back pain, restless legs, really bad chills and sweats and I am almost ready to hang myself..... nobody understands and nobody can help... question really is what the **** do I do at this point nothing seems to work