Day 3 norco withdrawals

[ABalone]

Hi everyone. I come on here and read everyone's posts all the time, figured it was time to join. I'm 34 and have been on and off painkillers for the last 5 years. It started when I had knee surgery, I would get 35 7.5 Vic's at a time and they would last me a few weeks. Cut to a few years ago, I'm in and out of the er constantly for "back pain" (I broke my back when I was 18, no I never got into the pills then), really just trying to get more pills. About a year ago I found a pain doc, he prescribes me 150 10mg norcos or percs a month. At first they would last a few weeks, I was taking about 8/day. Well now I'm lucky if they last me 1 week, I'm taking 20-25/day. I have forged rxs (added pain pills to another rx), bought illegally, complained of "cough" to my doc to get codeine syrup when I run out of pills. I took my last norco 3 days ago, I really want to quit but I admit its going to be hard when all I can think about is going to my doc for more pills. I have to wait at least 2 weeks until I see him again, hopefully I will be able to be strong. Right now I feel so out of it, these few days have been total hell. I'm so depressed, sad, hopeless, anxious, have no appetite and my whole body aches, I feel like the biggest loser in the world. All I think about are these pills. Right now I've just been smoking lots of pot the last 3 days, taking ambien to help me sleep, taking lots of ibuprofen, energy drinks, water, bananas. I have an rx for soma that I might pick up tonight, but really nothing besides an opiate is going to get rid of this doomed feeling. Thankful to have my loyal dog at my side right now, he forces me to get outside for walks. If anyone out there can offer any support or tips to get through this I would appreciate it. I'm supposed to go back to work tomorrow. I wish I never took that first Vicodin :(

[ABalone]

Ugh. Having a crappy day. Feeling so ****** right now...

[ABalone]

Thank you! There is a health food/vitamin/natural pharmacy (yes...my pharmacy...isnt it weird knowing there are hundreds of pills just sitting there?! Ugh. I try not to think about it) store right next door to my work, I'm gonna head over there and stock up. I've been eating really bland food--last night I had oatmeal with bananas and milk for dinner. With a ton of water.

[clean_in_ks]

Day 4...and at work....good for you!  Almost any protein drink will be good if you have now appetitie.  Most convenience stores have ice cold muscle milk...vanilla or chocolate or strawberry.....it's a tad expensive....there are a lot of protein powders that you can mix that are cheaper...but for a quickie pick up....just find a protein drink that ice cold....use a straw..or over ice with a straw.  It goes down easier.

If you have time, in addition to the Thomas Recipe, in our health pages, bottom of this page....there are some articles that will help you to read.
The amino acid protocol is really important (imo) and also there is an article about foods that increase dopamine....I ate a lot of turkey, swiss cheese, eggs (hard boiled or fixed anyway really).....Vitamin Water..the Revive one is full of essential B vitamins, potassium, vit c, and electrolytes...you can even pop those in the freezer for a bit...and have a slushy drink....it's really hot here so they taste FABulous to me...I'm drinkin one right now as a matter of fact lol

It's really important to drink, drink, drink....water, green teas, powerade, but just be sure to hydrate.  It majorly helps!

[ABalone]

Ps any tips on what I should try to eat? I have zero appetite but need o get something in my body, esp if I'm going to make it through work today.

[ABalone]

Day 4...heading to work. Feeling ok (well, "ok" is relative...) at the moment, my stomach hurts and I have that weird floaty head feeling. Thinking about getting the Thomas method vitamins today, any thoughts?

[OpenMind24hours]

My gut feeling about telling your mom, dad, stepdad and brother?  if you came clean to them you would have their love and support. But you would also create a sense of accountability to them. You and I know, if you kept going back out it all would wear thin with them, right?

You need to really, in your heart, have the desire to put this all behind you and learn to live your life without drugs and really enjoy living that way. It's entirely within your grasp. But the willingness and desire must come from you. Nobody can scare you into it or shame you into it. You got to be ready from within, yourself, to give it up for a new way of living, and it's yours to have. Like  I mentioned above, this is a cross road you're at and you found yourself reaching out for help. To me, that's a spark of willingness that I think you can fan into the desire to give up the old life.