Day 4 of sobriety

[Footblplaya]

Well the physical part keeps getting easier. My headache has started going away. Today I worked at the polls for the election so I got to relax a little bit. But, the mental battle has began. I got a call today from a guy offering me a great deal on some narco loratab 10s. It wasn't as easy to turn down today. Thankfully, I had the strength to turn them down. Unfortunatlly, this guy wasn't as supportive as the guy from yesterday. But, it doesn't matter, I still turned them down despite his repeted asking (or more like begging). He tried to play the guilt trip card on me saying that he was completly broke and he didn't have any money to buy dinner. So being the nice guy that I am, instead of just giving him money I went to mcdonalds and bought him a meal. Whether he had money or not, I don't know but I wasn't going to let him go home hungry but I also wasn't just going to hand him money either. So, I'm pretty satisfied at the way the day turned out. I know that this mental battle is only going to get harder, but I'm ready to face it head on because I'm determined to not relapse and have to suffer all over again. Well, goodnight everyone. Thanks for all your continued support and all your thoughtful comments. I will continue to keep eveybpdy updated on my progress. Please continue to keep me, and everybody else that's fighting this battle in your thoughts and prayers. God bless.
- Cody  

[gnarly_1]

Hey dude congrats on 4 days clean but shere will power isent enough im with the mooksmom
on this one you need to start thinking recovery I know at your age meetings probably sound bogus but if you truly want to be free of addiction you need to treat the disease...the very way you think needs to change otherwise all that will change will be your addiction
and there are many vices in life....Dude where not ragging on ya just trying to tell you how to stay clean anybody can get threw 4 days of being sick living without a buzz is a whole nother
can of worms....I wish you luck and hope you take the advise...I was once 18 and quit using
I dident start treating my addiction till I was 46....it a long time to stay high dont make the same mistakes I have made beat this thing wile your young.....Gnarly

[mooksmom]

Sounds like you are taking it ONE DAY AT A TIME...and that is all any of us can do. You did say you worked at the polls today, but I missed the part that said you went to a meeting today...or any day. Statistics show that those who get fully immersed in a 12-step program and go to meetings daily and even several in a day at first, do the best in recovery. Not only will going to meetings put you with others that are clean and wanting to stay that way, but you will not be around the people trying to keep you down by selling you Norco or Lortab. It's your recovery...YOU have to do the work. Just buying a HappY Meal for a dope dealer won't keep you clean.
GO TO THE MEETINGS....and best of luck to you in recovery!! You actually sound like you want to stop the madness!

[bmdad]

Congrats on day 4! If I can make a suggestion...How about changing you phone number? It's always best to cut off all ties with the pills because sometimes temptation can get the best of us. I know you have been strong as can be but what happens if they catch you on a bad day? I'm not saying that this will happen to you but I've seen it a million times. People are always so motivated during the first week or two of quitting and they get an almost natural high by turning the pills down. Later on we tend to forget how bad withdrawals were or think we have been off of the pills long enough that we can just take one or two for the day and not take anymore. We also no longer get that burst of motivation by saying no to the pills. It just becomes another "no thanks". All it takes is one pill to restart the cycle. As addicts we never stop at one pill. That one pill for the day will lead to another day of using. We talk ourselves into using for just one more day. That one more day leads to a week, etc. And before we know it we are right back to square one. I'm not saying you aren't strong because you have already proven that you are. Staying clean takes more than just strength and willpower. It also takes preparation. I just thought I'd mention a few ways you could prepare so you wouldn't even have to worry about it happening. If you can cut off all ties it will work in your favor. Do this by changing numbers or at the very least set a block on their numbers. I know with verizon you can log on online and block up to 5 or 6 numbers at a time. You have to re-add them after 30 days though.
Just keep pushing forward and never give up the fight! You are doing an outstanding job!
Best of luck to you!

Brian

[dominosarah]

Hi Cody, i am really proud of you for getting to day 4.  You are staying positive amd continue to work thru the wd's.  Just keep saying NO.  Dont let them guilt trip you into anything.  You stay in control of you now~~~sara