Day 6 and enjoying life!!

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Hello friends! At day 6 here and I am feeling good so far. I am no longer keeping track of hours as days are even getting tougher to count:)))))   Yesterday was a little rough in pm but nothing like I was foreseeing.  I seem to remember those waves can come back for a few weeks. I have been asking myself why is this time so much easier than it has been in past? The only new variable is posting on this forum and receiving all your heartwarming support.  I am getting glimpses of who I used to be and I have missed her:).  Thank you forum and friends for holding me accountable.  Shout out to Charlie and Nomore as they are right behind me and doing awesome!! Here is to another day down!

Nomore2 · Answer

You guys are making me laugh! Thanks!!!

Junip · Answer

Sounds like a perfect fit :-). I appreciate the warm welcome and look forward to the support and comraderie that only drug addiction can bring! Seriously, you are all amazing and I am feeling so pumped and ready to rock this battle. Feeling very hopeful for the first time in a long time. I am off to bed, have to do presentation in front of 40-50 attorneys (last time I popped an 80mg Oxy beforehand and had no nerves, tomorrow will be a new experience) and take my LAST Percocet. I have conquered oxy and now I will slay the Percocet beast!!! Have a GREAT night, wishing you all sweet dreams.

Tina6444 · Answer

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Charlie you are so funny!  I am SOOOO proud of you and attending the meeting. Wow buddy!Thanks for sharing! You guys have pulled me out of my negative mindset. I am better now:)   

 Welcome to our group Junip. We believe in the power of spousal verbal abuse (just kidding), throwing temper tantrums, exclamation points, and random laughter.

charlie_coldturkey_tn2015 · Answer

Okay, quit throwing stuff. I'm back in the room. Day 4 was tough, but now at 101 hrs I feel like I graduated a grade in school. Just got back from first ever NA meeting. WOW!!! Over 100 people there and absolutely what I needed. Woman clean for almost a year got up and started talking about how so many things were hitting in the last few days that she was getting the urge to get high and just escape but she didn't want to throw a whole year away and start over. Everybody supportive, but totally true. Main theme was honesty, not only about the urges, but that we are responsible for our own actions. We can all choose to give up, but we have to be honest why we on this journey to start with. Addiction is a disease and you have to fight with all the tools you can find. Like on here. I'm sorry you guys did not have a great day. I didn't either. But I still have a DRUG FREE DAY. And so do you. Stay strong. And throw things.

Junip · Answer

You ladies are awesome!! I was sharing your husband abuse commentary with my husband to potentially prepare him on my day 6 ;-). You are all doing great, cannot wait to hit my Day 6!!!

Tina6444 · Answer

No it is really funny:) )) Try it lol. Throw anything. I am not lying it is getting BETTER just posting. I am laughing out loud at all of my ridiculous posts!!  And snapping at husbands is cool…they probably deserved it anyway. Back in the day our complacent selves would let it go and pop a pill. Let's just chalk day 6 up to #$#@ and get on with our WEEK 1 :))))))

Nomore2 · Answer

I know it's probably not funny, but I just laughed out loud when I read you threw your phone and it helped. LOL I get that! I did go to the gym again. I struggled because I am feeling so tired, but it does help me to focus on something besides how I'm feeling. I am really irritable today. I snapped at my husband earlier, too. Maybe there is something about day 6?? I've been listening to comedy on Sirius when I'm driving around doing errands and it helps me to laugh. There is some funny stuff on the Comedy Central channel. I'm just taking it hour by hour. That's all we can do.

Tina6444 · Answer

Nomore I thought we had it in the bag:)) You are right about repairing ourselves. Unfortunately it takes time and we are probably going to have a few more rough ones in future.  I worked today and the new job is overwhelming and stressful as any one is. In my past I would have come home and popped a few tabs=masking stress and numbed the #@$% out of myself. However nomore there is nomore::)))  Alas I must resort to posting and yelling at my spouse.  I just threw my phone across the room and this helped as well.  I also have not had chance to join a new gym and I know this will solve a lot of my stress/aggression. Did you go to the gym again today rockstar?!? What are you doing to feel better?

Tina6444 · Answer

Thank you so much for the uplifting comment. I am really trying to pull myself out of this funk tonight. Took the infamous epson salt bath and am going to watch something funny tonight. I am an emotional wreck again tonight…back to multiple personalities (day1-3 for me) I suppose:)) Thank you to everyone for supporting all of my personalities! LOL

Nomore2 · Answer

This has been a tough day for me, too. I am having a lot of symptoms today, plus I am just so tired. I thought it would be better on Day 6. Anyway, just hang in there. I know you will. Did you work today? We are getting better every day. The longer we are off the pills, the more our bodies are repairing themselves. It took a while to get here, it's gonna take a while to get better! We are doing it.

Junip · Answer

Tina, you are super motivating and i love your spunk and spirit, reminds me of myself pre-addiction.  You are entitled to a bad day or few hours; just try to keep your chin up and do something fun or distracting. If you can listen to some music and take a walk you may get those endorphins going. You are a rock star and this thread is great!

Tina6444 · Answer

Thanks Charlie:) I am being a baby today and I know I need to suck it up. Just feel defeated this afternoon. Thank you for the comment and do not let my feelings impact your greatness!! A meeting !?!? So proud of you charlie:)

charlie_coldturkey_tn2015 · Answer

Hey, girl. out the door to n/a, but thinking about you. I will touch base in a few. Hang in there.

Tina6444 · Answer

Hi friends ! I had a rough day today and just need some motivation and support

Nomore2 · Answer

Interesting about the PAWS cycles. I have never heard that before. It's good to be aware of.

Tina6444 · Answer

Thank you for your advice as I have been following you silently for a long time now.  You know what you are talking about !!

Tina6444 · Answer

That's the attitude sista!!! Good days to all!! I ate a whole English muffin with peanut butter this am !! Getting appetite back slowly !! Charlie and jlansper keep checking in today ! We are here for you ! Sending positive vibes to all

Nomore2 · Answer

Yay!! Good morning. I am like you, starting to count days instead of hours. We are doing great, kicking butt and taking names! I think this forum is the difference. Talking to you and Charlie and Meeg and jlansper.......and all of the people who post on our threads......we are all in this together, it's a brotherhood. We can cheer each other on. It really helps me. Have a great day, Tina! I'm going to have a great one, too.

pillguy · Answer

What a marvelous attitude!  You got this.  Remember that this is a multi-step process.  Ultimately I think the process is a year long.  First we have the acute withdrawals.  Then a period of lethargy and depression which varies greatly from person to person.  Later in that year we potentially have PAWS symptoms to deal with.  Its fascinating to me that these PAWS symptoms seem to peak at 30, 60, 90 and 120 day cycles.  Its weird that lunar cycles would have anything to do with our recovery.  Its also interesting that AA/NA have ituitively recognized these cycles and recognize these milestones.

You've taken that giant first step.  Keep the momentum going.

Tina6444 · Answer

Charlie I think that's awesome !!!! You are such a fighter !! And yes I think going to a NA meeting is a great step for aftercare.  I have not personally been to one ( did go to support my sister once) and due to my occupation I am apprehensive about it.  Go and let me know how it is !  And the biggest reason you are doing so well is YOU !! You are such a fighter and in a few days you will look back and say " yup I kicked this battle's $@&"    If you hit a rough patch within the next few days stop and think about how we all have experienced and beat them. 100 hours for you bring it on Tennessee!!

charlie_coldturkey_tn2015 · Answer

Congrats on your hard work and progress! So proud and happy for you. Have a great day, stay strong and know you are a big reason why I WILL hit my 100 hr mark at 8 p.m. still have today  but woke up pretty good considering this is day 4. Between you and Nomore, I feel stronger everyday. Cravings, fatigue , and aches are still here, but through this, I'm not surprised. Headed to work for maybe 4 hrs and maybe an hour at cardiac rehab, then home. I have located and been invited to NA meeting tonight. Any thoughts? Hour 89 and feeling okay. Shout out to Nomore2. Love you guys. God bless you.

jlannspr · Answer

I have found each of my wd's different. Today at 24 hours is so different from past 24 hours. I use to be a different person before the pills. So full of life, and keep everything in order. With the pills, I "think" I keep stuff in order, but it's a fake high, a fake energy. I miss that real "high on life" feeling. I sent you a PM because your positive spirit is infectious. Keep it up.