Demon Pills

[gg636]

I am sick and tierd of Demon Pills! And no a pill does Not make you better.  It only mask the pain physical/or Mental. I will overcome, I will beat this, I have control -not the stupid pill.  GET OFF THE DOPE!

For everyone struggling.. Keep the faith and Slay this Demon!

[kyle505]

You are spot on...When you dance with the devil, the devil changes you, you don't change the devil. Keep up the good fight.

[theaddict]

agreed with kyle505 - keep up the good fight!
you're doing this.
we're all doing this.

we're doing it together.
[ cue in cheesy 80's music from top gun here ]
we got this.

[gg636]

@ Kyle I an trying so HARD! Day 11 of tapering begins tomorrow.  I am down by alomost 50%.  I just want  this to be OVER.  I know the choice is mine.  Some days are harder then others.  I keep relling myself I have got this I am in control.

Thank you for your positive attitude!  You Rock!

[selfinduced]

Hey GF,  You are on the right track. Hows the taper going? You have to really want this more than anything. Stay on task my friend. xx

[gg636]

Girl~ You just don't know how sick I am of this crap!   I feel like such a hypocrite.  I am down by 50% However, That posion is still in me!

[gg636]

Hi GF! I do I do! you know this... Like I said I just feel like a hypocrite! errrg!

[theaddict]

not sure why you feel as though you're a hypocrite just because you still take pills. you're tapering - and that's a way to get off of the pills. there is nothing wrong with it at all. just think about how great you're going to feel once your body gets used to lowering and lowering of the doses. i swear, you're going to feel like a brand new person.

[gg636]

I am so ready for this to be over.  I dream of the days that I will feel good this typering stuff is hard.  I know eveyone is diffrent,  I just want to be free of this once and foe ALL.!

[courageandlight]

AMEN. Trying to get off opiates is the hardest thing i have ever done. It just means we are stronger after! We can do it! I love all your positive attitudes.

[gg636]

Sometimes its hard for be to stay focused.  I forget what I am typing and I have to read over and over to comprehend.  I know what I am thinking but the words want come out of my mouth,

My BF has no clue what I am going thru and No I can't tell him.  My smile feels fictitious.  Yes I am happy to see him and spend time with him but Its just not the same I have to turn that frown upside down.

[theaddict]

you WILL be free of this once and for all. with the method you're using that best fits you - it will take a little time and that's all we have, right? keep thinking positively.

[gg636]

We all need positive reinforcement... Negativity is a trigger for me BIG TIME!.. Since I have been on the forum Everyone has been so positive even if they are having a bad day..

The crazy thing is I was so jacked up on pills I barley remember signing up..That was 11 days ago!  Thanks you all!

[gg636]

@theaddict... Thank you!  I want to be able to help others one day!

[theaddict]

you may not know it now.... but you already are!

[gg636]

I have to help myself first~ I guess I am..... I am so ready! :)

[theaddict]

eventually, you're going to realize that tapering off the pills is helping yourself. try not to be so hard on yourself. one of the first steps of moving forward is forgiving yourself. do it now! <333

[Stacy_Lynn]

She's right!!! i thought tomorrow i would have 1 pill left & decided i couldn't do it just yet so as of tomorrow am i will have 15 more (plus the 1 i still have) not to mention my refill is Friday i think, i havent even called for once. the past 5 days i've went from almost 80mg a day probally to less than 40mg so i fill like i've come a long way!! and i know that when i do get my refill this time i WILL NOT fall back into the devils trap but will be doing it MY WAY!!!

[Stacy_Lynn]

cause i'm ready to rid of this demon!! for myself alone & 2nd my family deserves 100% of me!!

[theaddict]

congrats to you, stacy!

[gg636]

I will keep that in mind Stacy.. I have some left that I am using for the taper method.  I also have a refill on the 13th of a stronger dose.  I do not want to get it.

@ the addict~ okay I forgive myself

[Stacy_Lynn]

Been there before i's\re in the past (luckily my only high comes from hydro) not that its any better. I'll have 2 more refills after this one but it's different this time cause i'am mentally ready, just not 100% i hate to say @ the moment. i've done tapering before & it worked!!!! I just feel too far gone now cause i never took more than 10mg @ one time & now i'll take alomost 30 if i must. u know the excuses us addicts make? i'm really ready this time, and yes it might take me 1-2 of my refills but i still feel like i need to control it my own way!! I have 2 kids & 2 jobs so my excuse is i can't be sick, period! Good luck & u CAN do it!!! if u really want too!!! trust me, if i can so can u!!!

[gg636]

Awww Stacy.. I have another typer friend.. My drug of choice was lortab/hydrocone.  My story is the same I would not take more than 10mg at a time but as much as 40-50 mg a day...

So tell me your exp with the taper method from the past...

[gg636]

@ Stacy how are you feelin as far as detox?

[Stacy_Lynn]

I'am just a little on edge, have little energy & am waking up after about 4-5 hrs of sleep (I'll take that compared to what i've heard others get on here)! I tapered 2 yrs ago with a Doctors help but i was only on about 30-40mg a day then & now have a 80mg a day habit. So sad that i let myself get into this situation again. Please keep us posted on how ur doing, r u having any WD @ the moment?