ONE HUNDRED HOURS

[strongbutscared]

I made it there. 100 hours. can't believe it.

My grandpop always wants to take me to the movies to spend some time with me. Two weeks ago, I blew it off. Last week, I went, and popped a pill before and after. Today, I called him, and asked him if he wanted to go. & I went. Drug free. That felt damnn good. I am proud of myself thus far. The second we got home from the movies, i was yawning, a few blahhhhh feelings, and oh did the craving hit. but here I am. I'm pushing through. You are all helping me SO SO much with ur support, helping me to not make that call. I'm so happy that it's Friday. day 5 wow! I dont have much to say except that I got out, saw a movie, and enjoyed real emotions....as a sober person.

[worried878]

countin hours..then days..then months..then yrs..then one day u will not even count anymore!

congrats on ur clean time..every hour is worth it

[udoschoices]

i'm about 100 hours too.... and mind games also acting up, but also headaches and lack of energy. My mood is good, but sleep is fitful. I'm loading up on supplements based on this book i'm reading about using supplementation to break addiction by giving the brain precursors to develop (re-develop) the endorphin system without opiates... buying my stock tomorrow and will be poppin' lots of aminos and vitamins instead of other pills!!!

anyway- good to hear someone else - stick with it, we're past the bad part... just not a lot of energy myself either..  plus dealing with my child's mother and her craziness DOES NOT HELP.  ugh

congrats to both of us!!!

[Jaybird30]

I'm right with you on that nittime deal!  Same situation mind is screwing with me!  I've been eating melatonin at nite to help sleep!  Tonite I'm going to try to just sleep but we will see!  It seems each day the mind games get less frequent and shorter!  Thank god!!!!!  That's the hardest part for me!

[strongbutscared]

thanks everyone! congrats on those 52 hours jaybird! im having a rough night. my mind keeps wandering. for a second i began to reason with myself ... started thinking hey, just a few. or hey im bored and feel like ****. but my soul beat it out. and will continue to. its just soooooooooo exhausting. not that im telling anyone here something they dont know! nighttime is not my friend, i dread it...but i also think that has alot to do with my mind...i tell myself ohno its nighttime, i wont be able to sleep. so i gotta get myself outta that habit. there are moments in the day that i just wanna walk round the house screaming the f word. then, theres the other moments, the more important ones, that i just smile, knowing im clean. also, its sooooooo different to look in the mirror. anyone else notice this? i never realizeed how truly effffffff'd up i looked till now that i dont. my whole face, eyes, overall appearance improves each day. this is my therapy. i appreciate all of u. every post makes me feel more alive inside.

[Jaybird30]

Awesome post!  I'm at 52 hours And enjoyed my day pill free with my three kids!!  They are my motivators!  My pride and my life!  I'll never eat a pill again!!!!  All thei innocence and love.....I want it back, I know it's in here somewhere!

[febninthgirl]

Hey you hold on to your grandad. I wish mine were still here. Congrats on your time

[gizzy32]

Well done on 5 days. Your doing the right thing and fighting through this. You have so much to look forward to now, I mean so many positive things start to happen after we get clean. Remember your still very early off them and it takes a bit of time to recover, but living life clean and sober is so much better than in our active use. Stay strong, your doing great and the worst is almost over:) CONGRATS