Detoxing...Day 1

[Digityz]

Hey guys,
Came across this forum and really has been helping me through my min. to min struggle im going through. I again find myself going through this BS... I have been prescribed 40mg OC's back in 2005 for a car accident... This was the downfall of my life. Since then I have been struggling with this addiction, even kicked cold turkey... IN JAIL! Lol Then went right back...

Currently I am on day 1 of detoxing from at least 300mg of OC a day... This is what ive cut it down to at least... I have finally had enough. My friends are all dead or in jail, my family knows im an addict and does not trust me... Rightfully so. My girl left me... Thats prob a good thing ;-) (At least I still got a sense of humor :-P) I decided about a week ago I was done. I am going to document my detox.

About a month ago I was laid off from my job in IT so I fortunately... or unfortunately (to early to tell) do not have much to do right now. Good thing cuz this takes time, bad thing cuz I sit around all day. Anyways...Yesterday my last dose was at 8pm 60OC of OC IR Here is what im armed with: (5) Sub 8MG strips, (6) 2MG xanax, (8) ativan, (10) soma, multivitamins, a whole lot of pepto.

I plan to do 4 day detox using the suboxone to taper today I waited as long as I could... Which was 1:30pm... About an hour after taking the sub, I started to feel a bit better. The profuse sweating stopped and my legs calmed down a bit from the soma. Luckily I am still constipated from the OC so looks like tomorrow should be fun...

I am writing this mainly to get some support from the internet community. I know many ppl have been through my struggle and have made it out to live very successful lives. I have been very successful in my addiction so I can only imagine where I can go with the drugs! Pls feel free to share any experience strength hope or advice you got, cuz lord knows I need it! Ways to keep myself busy without exerting to much energy... U know whatever :-P Thanks for reading... Im out.

[Digityz]

Well day 4 coming to a close... My eyes are super watery and ive been living in the bathroom most of the day but thats the hell we put our bodies through I guess. This is just a great reminder how bad it actually is for you... Anything that can make you this sick when you dont have it is pure evil.

Havnt took and sub since this morning... I still have a bit left but im trying to take as little as possible so down goes the valium. Im out day 5 here I come.

[cirene]

Dude, you're an inspiration.  I've never seen someone detox with such a positive attitude.  And exercising???  I was bedbound, crying in the fetal position!

Best of luck to you.  Hang in there and hang on!  :-)

[Digityz]

Thats awesome! Keep it going man! It takes changing your life not just not using. I cut out all my friends, changed my #, you got to go full force. Then once the withdrawls are over the real work begins... Crappy I know but we do it to ourselves is the sad truth. Keep fighting the good fight dude cuz as you say it will pass!

[donewitis]

I have been following your posts. I cannot advise but I'm glad you're sticking it out. Like you said, "I can't let it define me." Congrats Day 4!
I continue to say to myself, :"This too shall pass"

[Digityz]

Wow... Day 4.... Stomach pains, diarea, throwing up.... Not a fun morning. Thank god for the herb! I finally smoked a bit which calmed the nausea, and took a bunch of pepto which seems to be helping a bit. I forces down a peice of toast.... I want nothing to do with eating right now. I took about 1MG of sub this morning which is pretty much nothing but it seems to be doing the trick for now. Plan is to do another 1mg tonight, nothing tomorrow then reassess. I have built up a good little support system and am ready to be in the world as a
"normal". Lol I know I know whats normal anyways. Ill tell you normal isnt shooting dope and pills every day.... I will not let that define me.

Music has been my savior! I think it may be my new drug of choice. Trevor Hall is saving my life right now. :-) Updating coming soon.. Keep the comments coming pls.

[Digityz]

I know the subs cause withdrawl too, I am just detoxing myself like any rehab would. Ive kept my taper breif for this simple fact. But heres the thing, it helps me to get acclimated back into not putting things in my nose everyday (also part of the addiction), and also causes me to be just a little bit sick instead of the full blown. I know its a bunch of excuses but look what the options are:

Methadone.... Heck to the no wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy worse withdrawls
Cold Turkey.... Im not strong enough for that...
Suboxone is at this point the lesser evil. Yes it does cause withdrawls but from  my experience they are NOTHING near as bad as oxy, But that is just me. Everyone is different and effected different, thats why there is nothing that is successful for everyone. The most important part you hit right on the head though man, attitude. It is such a mental f***.