Did you ever think like this

[gizzy32]

I was just talking to R2R and asked her a dumb question but she was the same way so i wanted to hear your intake on this. When i was using drugs i always assumed everyone else was too. Like when i was out and people were laughing and seemed happy i wondered what the hell they are on and i want some, lol. I mean i didn`t understand how people could be happy without being high. Now that i am clean i dont`even think like that. While you guys were using, did you ever think like this at all, did you look at others and assume they were using. I know it sounds weird, but i used to look at everyone and think they had to be on something cause they seemed happy.

[HR_PuffnStuff]

I find this a very interesting topic...thanks for bringing it up. I always envied others and wished I could be happy and normal just like they were. I never thought anyone else was using. But now, I do look at some people with suspicion. In fact, today I was at the pharmacy picking up a prescription for hubby (antibiotics) and there was a man there telling the pharmacist that he had had an "accident" with his pills and could he get some more and not go through his insurance? Of course my ears perked up and I listened. She said he could pay cash but since they were a controlled substance he could not get them early even if he paid cash. I could tell he was pretty bummed. I felt so bad for him..you can really empathize when you are on the other side.

[newmanagment]

I cant pass anyone using a pay phone without thinkin they are callin their dope dealer. seems since we were always using pay phones to hit pagers, and waitn for that "call back" , that my mind associates anyone on a pay phone wit dope LOL. but one good thing is they announced on news the other day that they are removing all pay phones from the peoria area..... seems even the city is tryin to decrease my triggers!!
I think this is natural, and hope it will fade away for all of us.

[Jambo62]

This is an interesting topic, i meet people and think that they are on Pain Killers because they are energetic and happy.....I never felt paranoid but i did seem  dazed on occasion....(alot)

Jambo

[Kova]

yeah, my husband was like that but in the reverse.  he was paranoid that everyone knew we were on drugs or going through WDs.  before i started using i never suspected people of that, it just didn't cross my mind.

Kova

[liscamdave]

Actually, I thought the opposite. I remember being so badly addicted and just wishing I could wake up and be normal and not need a pill to function. I remember looking at every passer by and thinking to myself, how I envied them for being clean. And now, knowing how many people are closet addicts, I am sure half were looking at me thinking the same thing....its crazy.

[bobby139]

I was different too i always looked at ppl and wished i could be happy like that without taking some kind of drug, never thought of them taking any. But now that im off of them i do look at ppl at pharmacy too and wonder what their getting, and still feel like the pharmacist is wondering if im getting my drugs somewhere else cuz she use to always get mad at me for getting pills to early..

[refusingbondage]

Now I feel weird... lol.. Its funny I never associated happy people as being addicts.  To me, shiny happy people were always 'normal', non-drug users..

but yeah who doesnt imagine what the next person is bringing home from the pharmacy.  That I can relate to.

[Courtney85]

OMG yes!! And everytime I go to the pharmacy I'm like hmmm wonder what kind of narcotics they are getting!! Funny never knew anyone else thought like that lol

[wannabefree330]

I think the reason I assumed happy people were using is that I was so ashamed and guilty for doing what I did, that I wanted to think they were the same so I didn't feel so isolated and lonely.  the fact that I could only be happy when using or high lead me to believe everyone was like that.....I'm so glad that I CAN be happy w/o drugs today.  It scared me to think I would be bored w/life w/o drugs.

[refusingbondage]

I envy the naturally happy people too.  But when I was using I NEVER ever thought anyone was as f'd up as me.  I had an opposite take on it all.  My high was always private and personal and sometimes very lonely because I would look around and think NO ONE understood and no one was using, but me.. NOW though, being clean and reading all the stories and getting to know so many lovely people just like me here on this forum, now I do look around a bit more speculativly and there are lots of people I suspect are using.. I guess when I was using, I couldnt see past my own addiction..

[AlessandrasMom]

I know what you mean and I still do this.  Have for a long time.  I constantly look around at people who are happy and wonder if they are on pills, or some type of drugs.  It's hard to explain, but I think it's because in my case, I don't yet still understand how I can be happy without drugs, so why could anybody else?  I truly envy those people who are naturally happy and wish I could be that way.