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Do you belive in MIRACLES?

Well I don't know if you remember me but I was the one that posted about 3 weeks ago or 4 about the RX fraud? Well if you don't I will try to make a long story very short or as short as I can.
I work in the medical field and for this Doctor I been working for him of and on for 10 years the first time for almost 5yrs and the second time is being almost 21/2 yrs, well since I came back to work for him I was doing something very wrong and that is writting RX on his name, I know that is a horrible thing to do and I should have never done it I know, I know and I know but anyways I haven't done it since the end of last year. Well my sister was working in the office with me is a small office and I didn't want to tell him that she is my sister since I hire her I'm the office manager so I never told the doctor about our relation, I hire her in 11/07 and well the DR. was having problems with him because of her performance at work we had several meetings and was just getting worse and worse, well she wanted to get fire so she can get unemploement and that is why she was acting up so the DR and I decided to fire her cause the DR was just not able to work with her anymore. Well the day that we fire her she decided to just let the DR. know everything, starting with " GS and I are SISTERS" "GS is addicted to drugs" "DR you need to be carefull with her" and a hole other things that are to painfull and bs also that I just don't even want to remember. I'm still trying to understand WHY, WHY did she do it? I never done anything bad to her NEVER, I can really say it, I hire her to do her a favor knowing that she was a Iligal ellien, I have done so much so f**** much for her and her FAMILY  and why would she do that to me? but I have to own every wrong thing that I have done and just face up to everything and just leave everything in GOD'S hands and that is what I did, at first when the DR. ask me I said NO NO NO I didn't do it, but I knew that everything was about to just come down on me. Well I just stay working with him because he need it me cause we are a small office and I'm the only one that knows how to do everything so I just pray, pray and pray.
Well it has been hell for me for the past few weeks and I really really was waithing for the cops to show up to work or home at any moment and I decided when I knew that the DR already knew all the truth I went up to the DR and told him EVERYTHING and about my addictions how it started, when, why and how I started calling in RX's in his office and when and also when it all stopped and how long and how and he listen, and listen>
I said sorry so many times and I was for the first time in many years complitly open and FREE and really really FREE.
I knew I had lost my job but I wanted to let him know that I was really sorry about everything before leaving.
Well He said, He was not going to fire me and that he would give me another chance and that he belive in me and my recovery and that he will help me come out of it as long as I would let him, He ofcourse want to do regular drug screens and also want to get records from the Pchycologist ant Therapist that is treathing me regularly to see how I'm doing.
I honestly can't belive that a stranger would have more compassion than my own sister after all I have done for Her, I was already 8 months off the lortab and off from calling in RX's but of course she didn't know cause she never botter to ask me or care about me. But this person that we all though He didn't care about anything but him self showed me I was wrong and that he care, He could have just fire me call the cops and find another office manager/biller but he knew that the person that my sister described as "a addict" and so much more was not ME he knew me the real me the one from 10 yrs ago and so He saved my life.
Well I call it a MIRACLE just that, and now I'm so happy cause I feel FREE in a long time I feel like I'm not hitting anything anymore and that feels great.
So never give up, never surrender if is not to GOD or your FAITH and don't bet your self up cause we are HUMANS and make mistakes.
Thanks for listening (or reading)
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I remember your last post, I am so happy for you and pround of you, are you totally off of everything now?

Yes, I do believe in miracles! Jules
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Thanks and well I'm not off of everything I'm on subutex and also my pchycologist put me on a very low dose of Xanax and that is really helping me right now that I have being in all the pressure.
But the DR understands how things go and that I have a problem and that I'm getting better and working on it.
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1064938 tn?1255282319
wow!!!!!!!  I can not belive your sister did that to you.  You could have gone to jail.  I mean I know that what you did was wrong and you did it not her but oh my god, I can not belive she turned on you like that. Sober or not I would have kicked her a$$.  Congrats on getting your life together.  I am very proud of you that you stoped doing all that stuff on your own. Not because you got caught or you had to but because you knew it was wrong.  Way to go!!!! You are a special person and I know you will make it.  As for your sister well, she would not be my sister anymore!!!!
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495284 tn?1333894042
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The truth shall set us free........Good for you on telling him everything.  I wish you nothing but the best...........sara
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Thank you, and as for my ex sister well I just said it even though I havent talked to her we had a "conversation" over the phone or I would say texting that began on "you f*** b*** and ended on her really bad" on both ends I wouldn't say she was the only one that went off on me even though she had nothing to go off at.
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You are completly right, I allways heard that " THE TRUTH SHALL SET US FREE" and I used to say I really really want to feel it when I say that, and you know now I really felt it when I wrote it lol, I really feel FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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Recovery,

You are on the right track, and for your sister, I believe in God and charma and when someone like your sister treats you badly, if i were her i would be worried about charma coming around and getting her back 3 times as hard,

you have enough to worry about just within your own life, you have a great job and a wonderful boss and i think that you both will be good friends for life.

try and keep a support line goin for yourself, like this website i really beleive is my own personal NA meetings and I attend sometimes 3 times per day or more.

hang in there, jules
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I also belive in charma and even though I don't want to be negative and also hope that one day she really thinks about what she did and she will do something good for someone else.
I lost my sister my 3 nieces that were like daugthers to me, my dad cause he took her side and the worse is that she leaves 1/2 block from me REALLY lol that is crazy!!!!
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198154 tn?1337787265
I'm sorry, but I have to say it.....

Told ya so!!!!

The truth will set you free!!
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199177 tn?1490498534
I don't think I would call this a miracle . Just keep on the straight and narrow get the help you need to stay clean .You can do it .
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Yes I know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
I can laugh about it now
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Well I call it a miracle and to me that is what it is cause how many DR's would forgive you from doing something like that? Yes I belive I had a lot to do cause I'm a good worker and also I good person but I never thought that will save me from this one really.
So for me it is a MIRACLE in is own way.
But thanks for your encouragement.
GS
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