Energy

[BearsFan1966]

So I have been sitting here this morning pondering my whole energy situation...Here is what I have come up with!
We spend so much time taking our DOC to make us "feel better" but I think we were just fooling (I should say I know) ourselves. We would take a pill to do this or that, leaving our bodies to play catch up with our minds! Now that we are clean our poor bodies are trying to recover and this takes time! Even at 70 days clean I still do not have much energy or motivation. I did this to my body for over 10 years! But I can take that just don't want to chase that stupid pill!
When we are chasing the pill or DOC our heart races just thinking of that next one! Is that living life? NO
Think about the money wasted on DOC...I know I have wasted so much money, time, and my kids life's chasing the next high!
I can think clearer now and if I do not get some thing done I know it will be there tomorrow waiting for me and that's ok cause I am clean!
I am not a robot running in circles any more...I am me!
I am human again and loving the little things in life again!
I do not fly off the handle any more and think before I react now!
I see the little things that mean so much now!
Being clean is all that matters to me now and my family is my number 1 priority!
I will wait as long as it take for my body to heal because life with out pills is truly a life worth living!!!
I hope some one gets some thing out of my rambling and pushes on!
Love you all and you all are my hero's!
WE CAN DO THIS!!!!!

[Bubbleguppie100]

Aww I love this post. So positive! I needed a positive post like this, this morning. Thank you!

[BearsFan1966]

You are never forgotten Teri I will send both! lol

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you guys so much!

[clean_in_ks]

EXCELLENT post!!!  All of it....but one sentence in particular resonated with me:

"I will wait as long as it take for my body to heal because life with out pills is truly a life worth living!!!"

This is profound....even though I was not on pain meds for 10 yrs...I was bedridden for close to 2 full years.  I was an atrophied, unfit, disabled mess!  I have adopted the very same attitude....."I will wait AS LONG AS IT TAKES for my body to heal".....and when I am overwhelmed with pain today....I just find something....anything...to remind me of where I was 16+months ago.  I'm definitely healing...albeit SLOWLY.

Determination, perseverance and gratitude......good for you Bear~
Connie

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you Connie I had to really think about this post before I posted. I did not want to discourage anyone but I feel I need to always be honest with my posts!

[Heather8448]

CONGRATS ON THE BIG FLUSH!!!
So PROUD of you!!!!

Bear This was an awesome AHH HA! Moment!! love the post