Fail....

[Kelseago]

Crap.....i was gonna avoid this but you guys prob understand. I was having a good day. I was being productive...unpacking, cleaning n such. Well i found 20 of my "little friends". I held them for 30 mins going back n forth to the trash. I failed.....i took 3 feeling great at first but now the guilt comes. I kept telling myself look how much energy you have!!  You can get the whole house unpacked!!!  I know I messed up. I'm waiting for my husband to come home and dreading having to tell him. I will though, too much trust has been lost by my addiction

[Kelseago]

Thanks so much you fuys. I am a very lucky woman to have found this place. I can only hope that i get atleaat this much from my NA meetings I start next wk

[pillfree21]

He obviously loves you and has forgiven you, now you must continue to forgive yourself and see the blessings that you have in him and your children.  I know it is a lot easier said than done, but I just wanted to add a little encouragement to your efforts and let you know that you are not a failure for taking the pills right in front of you, many of us with short time in recovery can not handle that type of challenge either, you did a great thing by not hiding the other 17 and continuing to take them.  I wish you the best with your recovery.

[swflafun]

Kelseago - We learn from our mistakes. You made one. Its not the end of the world. Just accept it and learn from it. One of my cardinal rules of business: Always learn from your mistakes...we all do make them.

Gary

[swflafun]

Kelsago - you know you made a mistake. No harm in that. Follow the advice of the Eye, he is very helpful and gave some good advice..as you know. Without mistakes, we don't learn...

Gary

[Kelseago]

:) thank you so much. You guys are amazing!  I'm really glad I found this place!

[ImDONENoMore]

There you go - the right attitude will be key to your recovery and soon, you will KNOW you can do it, actually, you ARE doing it.  :)  p.s. and i agree, i think many of us start taking drugs to feel better about ourselves.  it's normal and soon you'll realize just how special you are.  we see it - so you should too!