Felt like pickin' up today

[Punkinhead75]

I just want to tell on myself.  I felt like drinking today.  I've been dealing with back issues and it seems as though a spinal fusion may be in my future.  I saw the doctor today and he explained a lot of stuff to me in regards to the pros and cons of having surgery and not having surgery.  I gotta admit I'm not comfortable with having the surgery although in time I think it will be the right thing to do.  Anyway,  on my way home the self-pity and the negative projection hit me pretty hard and then the eF Everything And Runs hit (FEAR) too.  Then all of a sudden my mouth watered.  I could taste and feel the booze.  It has been awhile since that has happened.  When I got home a sponsee called just to check in and we talked a bit.  Then he asked if there was anything on my mind I needed to talk about.  So I told him what happened and he was glad I shared.  Soon after I called my sponsor cuz I still didn't feel right.  He told me to get to a mtg.  I went to a mtg.  I didn't share with anybody there.  It was a speaker mtg.  I showed up late cuz I origionally wasn't going to go but decided to go anyway.  Then I left pretty quick so I could get the gym and go swimming before they closed.  I feel better now.  A little more at peace with life as it is today.  Grateful to be sober and to have a network and a way of living that works.  This experience just goes to prove that just because we think it doesn't mean we have to do it!!!  Thanks for letting me share.

[laurel453]

Hey, i am so glad that you both did pull through those cravings....

i haven't had any problem with the full moon :) so i am more for the stress option... you both are going through a lot of stress... the news about your surgery and the pain hit on you, punkinhead and it is normal, it would have hit on me and any person but you dealt with everything great and taking the right and healthy choices for you, WELL DONE :)

and congrats to both for overcoming your own  full moon craving day :)

[FassFeat]

You are right about the fishing. LOL

[ang_811]

lol...for real? im really gonna look more into this full moon thing, i wonder what else it effects.....

[Punkinhead75]

Thanks ang_811 and FassFeat for the support and congrats to everyone for being sober today.

I'm usually more upbeat around a full moon cuz the fishing seems better!!!!  LOL!!!!

[ang_811]

i think it has alot to do with the full moon, ur right. i read sumwhere, where a full moon effects a persons brain waves.

[FassFeat]

I know we all have cravings and I am so happy that you both got thru yours today.. due to the plan you have if place and the fact that you are working it. Congrats. One more day.

Has anyone noticed that the last couple of days have been especially trying for everyone.. It is a full moon, I just noticed last night.

Kudos on a win today Punkinhead and ang811. Congrats to you both.

[ang_811]

glad to  hear u made it thru just for today. u did all the right things when u got that craving. swimming, talking to ur sponser, and getting to a meeting. thats a pretty good plan to have. it does help to have a great supportive network also. i know what u were feeling when u got that craving for alcohol. i also got a craving for alcohol tonight whlie i was out. it made my mouth water and i just wanted the taste of alcohol in my mouth. its crazy. neways im glad u didnt use today.  we defintly have to always be prepared to put up a fight at anytime

big hugs to u for getting thru today.