Finishing Methadone

[FinallyReady115]

First I will say that anyone else going through this can check my posts on my name as I have been documenting this process.

I just had a nice big emotional check a cpl minutes ago.  I called my mom on my own choice to tell her that I was finally really done with methadone and I was so proud to do it.  When I get her on the phone and told her the first thing that she focused in on was "Tell me when you have 4 weeks".  Followed by were you never off of it before.  That question came from me telling them 2 times before that I was done bc I didnt want to disappoint them and was tired of them asking me when I was going to go down more.

This was something that needed to be done on my own time and at a time in which my mind was ready, which at the time it wasnt.

So my large guts that I had to call and tell her that (she would have never known) turned into me feeling like I was the bad person again and getting that same feeling of I am never good enough for them.

[FinallyReady115]

Slept all night last night except to get up to go to the bathroom. Lookin good!

[FinallyReady115]

Man time flies. 9 days already down. Legs were hurting today bc I'm sure my body is trying to pull any methadone that's left in it. Other than that a little anxiety but nothing unmanageable. We will see how I sleep tonight and I will post either later tonight or tomorrow

[FinallyReady115]

Well middle of day 8 now and I slept in my own bed last night and I slept the whole night!  No spasms, no nothing. Think I might be out of the woods now!

[VICourageous]

OK Keep Going it is a good thing..I know alot of people have there own ways but for me my last 57 years my own way got me in this mess..OK..They will tell you to get a Sponsor but I did not Jump on that right away until I listen to people..I needed a tough one because I am so bullheaded and set in my ways..It is like one & one therapy and you can let alot go and so on..You let me know how it goes and I will PM you back too and let you know how mine is going..In fact I am going to go and work on a few Steps again...Good Job Keep on Truckin Forward and do not look back..Ya!!!!!

[VICourageous]

OOPPS I meant that as our stages of  recovery process forward we need to do the Steps over & over because more about our Life and our Selves is Reveled..You will understand it more when you hit those meetings..Like I have sad this Journey was not meant to be walked alone..That is the Gods Honest Truth!!!!!
Bless You..

[FinallyReady115]

Yea I hit a meeting last night and I mostly just watched and listened. Talked a little about my story but just kinda soaked it in