Finishing Methadone

[FinallyReady115]

First I will say that anyone else going through this can check my posts on my name as I have been documenting this process.

I just had a nice big emotional check a cpl minutes ago.  I called my mom on my own choice to tell her that I was finally really done with methadone and I was so proud to do it.  When I get her on the phone and told her the first thing that she focused in on was "Tell me when you have 4 weeks".  Followed by were you never off of it before.  That question came from me telling them 2 times before that I was done bc I didnt want to disappoint them and was tired of them asking me when I was going to go down more.

This was something that needed to be done on my own time and at a time in which my mind was ready, which at the time it wasnt.

So my large guts that I had to call and tell her that (she would have never known) turned into me feeling like I was the bad person again and getting that same feeling of I am never good enough for them.

[VICourageous]

Ya you know my story..The sleep was the last and I just had to stop fighting it..Once I Posted for sleep info and I got all kinds of Hot Information..Like about the Stims way before bed and turning the TV off..Having a cool dark room..It just went on & on..Too bad it is so far back..Everyone on here had all kinds of suggestions of what to take to help sleep too!! Like I said it will come back..I told you that last month all I wanted to do is sleep..Ekkkk..You are doing such a Great Job!! Oh and Weaver above me was my Mentor....lol
I also like the AA..I go to both AA/NA but AA seems a bit more caring and spiritual.. You just hang tight..Good Job I am proud of you..

[FinallyReady115]

Yea but to elaborate or the sleep more. I am sleeping. Naps during that day. No problem, and at night ill generally get to sleep for an hour or 2, wake up for one with spasms. Not lay there and fight it and instead get up and do something. Then once I lay down again I'm good for the night. So I'd say I'm almost there

[VICourageous]

What Kind of Spasms??/Like the Leg thing???

[FinallyReady115]

Yea the leg thing and then my lower back. Feels likes there are tentacles grabbing at my back muscles making me wanna jerk.

So here we are, DAY 7. Slept almost the whole night last night minus about 30 minutes. I went to the meeting last night and was able to meet and talk to some very nice supportive people. I kinda just listened and told my story a bit last night but it was still nice.

But also to add on the spasms are going away now. Don't rly have the leg pain during the day now which is nice so I think I'm getting close to being in the clear.

Most of the times tho when I have those spasms, I have figured out the best way to get rid of them is not lay there and fight it. Just get up and fart around doing whatever for 30 mins or so then I'm good.

So that's my update for the day and I hope to hear from y'all soon!

[VICourageous]

Alright day 7!! You are getting some sleep man that is a big plus..Oh the lower spine thing..I think I told you about that one..Its like that is the last place for the toxins to leave..I was told we have a sac on the bottom of the spine that holds fluids..It was like the pain would go up & down like a thermometer..One day it was low and another it was between the shoulders..You are getting out easy because of the taper..I am so proud of you and you are just ticking away with your time..I sure am glad the rls is going away..Did not have that one this time around..I powered prayed at a church with holding hands and asked my God to please take that one..That was my worst fear..had it off the hydo/oxys..Ekkkkk
OK Keep Stepping up those Steps and do not fall back-words..
Bless You
vickie

[FinallyReady115]

Well day 7 is done and onto 8. I have started to comment to other ppl to share my experience with this and I think that is something that also helps a lot

Feeling good and looking forward to how this goes!