Day 9-But also relapsed

[Lucky2bAlive]

Good morning everyone. Well I am 9 days today off the opiates however I relapsed and started smoking weed again. I really am disappointed in myself but I made it 36 days without and I hadn't gone a single day in 10 years until this. I guess ill try to blame my reason for smoking on trying to sleep through these opiate withdrawals. I did sleep last night for a whole 7 hours and I did not take melatonin either. But it is still no excuse to have used again and I must stay focused and not give in. Obv whats most important to me is staying clean off the opiates and I have. I do not take anything for anxiety or any other meds. It has been a real tough 9 days for me but I've pulled through and not picked up. I really haven't even thought about using other then the one day I had to deal with my grandmothers heart attack. So for me I've learned that a major trigger is how I deal with my stress in life. I am working as hard as I can to get through this and I thank many of you for being an inspiration to me. There is no way in hell im going back after getting this far. I can see the light on the other side. Just make it past the first 5 days and you will be free of this crap. It's not worth putting it off it only gets worse everyday. I hate hate hate opiates.  DAY 9 HERE WE GO

[sparks566]

realli well done stayin clean for 9 days. i have had a serious heroin addiction. ive been to treatment an was clean an soba for a whole month.. yes i repeat a whole month!!! i then became weak for some strange reason. i guess i missed the drug fun. but its the worst thing in the whole world to be a slave to that stuff. im 21 an have had 3 years on methadone. take my advice if u wish, but its not the answer!! its just as bad an harder to get your self off. i have been ill many of times but still i chose to go back to that horrible life!! im now pleased to say im 3 days clean and on a subutex programme. choose subutex not methadone please!! they dont work strate away but when they do you will realise thier is hope. I HATE OPIATES!!!!!!!!

[Punkinhead75]

Good job on the 9 days!!!!  After care saves my butt.  Learning how to live a deal with life stuff was something I needed to do if I was to stay clean and sober.  Listen to Sara she knows what she's talking about.  I hope your grandma is doing better.  God Bless!!