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I got the same old story. You've all heard it b4. Been on opiates for quite awhile. Was doing oxys pretty heavy for awhile, (snorting them ) got down to vicodan/lortab,every so often a couple of oxycodone 20's...Just couldnt ever kick it for good,tho. always scared of the withdrawls, cause when I was wd-ing from the oxys,(all the time,always living on the edge of withdrawl) the wd's sucked as you all know,so I never finished withdrawing,went back,and back,and back...
Anyway I'm here. Monday afternoon I stopped,CT, and got over 50 hours clean b4 last night when I snorted 2 oxycodone 20's.
I dont know why I did them. It was stupid. The 50 hours clean was probably more time clean than I've had in awhile. I was making it thru the withdrawls. Why the hell did I go and do that? I was makin' it. That little voice in my head,tho...and the stupid anxiety attacks when ya aint got it...
I feel pretty good right now. I think I can still do this. those 2 20's in the last 3 days aint gonna kill me. Maybe I wont go back to square 1 with the wd's since it was only 2 20's in the last 3 days now...I dont wanna go thru the whole withdrawl thing again. Maybe it wont be so bad...
I got the same old story. You've all heard it b4. Been on opiates for quite awhile. Was doing oxys pretty heavy for awhile, (snorting them ) got down to vicodan/lortab,every so often a couple of oxycodone 20's...Just couldnt ever kick it for good,tho. always scared of the withdrawls, cause when I was wd-ing from the oxys,(all the time,always living on the edge of withdrawl) the wd's sucked as you all know,so I never finished withdrawing,went back,and back,and back...
Anyway I'm here. Monday afternoon I stopped,CT, and got over 50 hours clean b4 last night when I snorted 2 oxycodone 20's.
I dont know why I did them. It was stupid. The 50 hours clean was probably more time clean than I've had in awhile. I was making it thru the withdrawls. Why the hell did I go and do that? I was makin' it. That little voice in my head,tho...and the stupid anxiety attacks when ya aint got it...
I feel pretty good right now. I think I can still do this. those 2 20's in the last 3 days aint gonna kill me. Maybe I wont go back to square 1 with the wd's since it was only 2 20's in the last 3 days now...I dont wanna go thru the whole withdrawl thing again. Maybe it wont be so bad...
stay strong and keep the mind busy...then go home and take a hot bath and sleep...
Almost gave in.its almost lunch,I'm at work. Didnt give in. If I can get thru tomorrow then I'll be home all weekend w/ no real access to the pills...and then that'll be 4 days...
arrggghhhh
arrggghhhh
Don't feel bad Jerry almost all of us used again after our first wds. I did it after 2 weeks. I did get the chills again but the panic wasn't as intense.
You can do it Jerry. You will be amazed at how much better you feel in just one week. We all think the wds will be a huge monster we can't conquer but after a week we can look back and smile at how much easier is was than we thought. Wow what a relief to not chase them today.
You can do it Jerry. You will be amazed at how much better you feel in just one week. We all think the wds will be a huge monster we can't conquer but after a week we can look back and smile at how much easier is was than we thought. Wow what a relief to not chase them today.
do you still have oxies at your disposal for those "just in case" moments..?
of course you can do this...but not alone...you need all the support you can get right now if your committed to doing this...and if you do have any more oxies around...get rid of the temptation...its a lot to deal with when your sick with withdrawals and you KNOW you can be well again if you take 1 of those little pills you may have at arms reach...
stay strong and there are some nonaddictive meds that can ease the withdrawals also...if your interested let me know...and good luck to you!!!
of course you can do this...but not alone...you need all the support you can get right now if your committed to doing this...and if you do have any more oxies around...get rid of the temptation...its a lot to deal with when your sick with withdrawals and you KNOW you can be well again if you take 1 of those little pills you may have at arms reach...
stay strong and there are some nonaddictive meds that can ease the withdrawals also...if your interested let me know...and good luck to you!!!
heck yes you can do this. failing is a part of winning....so of course you are going to relapse at least once....the main thing is you are HERE with support and friends....people that have gone through what you have....and people that have been clean for a long time with good advice....
so good luck to you friend. you can do this. first 3 days....only 3 days....my advice is thomas recipe [great stuff] and for the flu symptoms, i was taking this homeopathic stuff called oscillococcinum, and it really helped.
so good luck to you friend. you can do this. first 3 days....only 3 days....my advice is thomas recipe [great stuff] and for the flu symptoms, i was taking this homeopathic stuff called oscillococcinum, and it really helped.
I know it wasnt the right thing to do. Story of my life,,,In the past,tho,by the 50th hour i shoulda been in full blown withdrawls and I wasnt.I'm figuring it was because I stepped down from the oxys to mostly vic's / lortab...which is not as strong,obviously as the oxys.
Dont get me wrong,I still felt like ****,had the little voices and anxiety attacks nonstop, but I wasnt in full blown withdrawls and I should have been. (past experience).I've put off quittin for so darn long.
I can do this.
Dont get me wrong,I still felt like ****,had the little voices and anxiety attacks nonstop, but I wasnt in full blown withdrawls and I should have been. (past experience).I've put off quittin for so darn long.
I can do this.
Pick yourself up and dust it off. The main point is now you know that it is time to quit. Remember the worst psychical part is the first 3 days. Just suck it up until day 4 has passed and you will be on the home stretch. Don't let the voices make you cave again. When you feel weak come to the forum and you will find the incentive and the support you will need to keep going.
It wasn't the right thing to do, but perhaps you didn't have the support to help you stay away.
It's okay. Only a small set back.
I'm glad you came here. Yeah, we all have the same ole' story.
If you were only in your 50th hour, you were not detoxed yet. It takes longer than that.
Keep on reading. Some of our profiles are really scary huh?
It's okay. Only a small set back.
I'm glad you came here. Yeah, we all have the same ole' story.
If you were only in your 50th hour, you were not detoxed yet. It takes longer than that.
Keep on reading. Some of our profiles are really scary huh?
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