Kicking this habit

[KeepingFaith32]

Hi everyone... I'm 32 mother of four. Been taking lortabs for 7 years :( started after some surgeries. Then I didn't stop. Recently up to 10- 10/500ml a day. I hate them and they are ruining my life and family. I've came off them before and it was hell. This time when I decided to stop taking them it was Friday morning when I got sick with a stomach virus I started throwing up every 20 min. Ended up in the hospital by the next day I thought I was going to be ok but I was wrong. I left the hospital against their advice. And by the next morning I was throwing up again so then I knew I was going through withdrawals. So I got some tabs and took one and started feeling a little better by the next one a little better. Anyway I'm trying to taper down unlike before when I went cold turkey. But I don't know how to taper without making myself so sick And end up back in the hospital I feel like crap right now. And I have people to help but its hard for them to help if they don't understand addiction. Can anyone tell me where to start tapering from 10-10s a day? Please help I'm miserable but I don't want to over do it and stay on them.  

[KeepingFaith32]

Thanks to all of you. I have been all over the net looking at different things that help. And while I know there's ways to help none seems right in the time I'm trying to quit. I know that's all in my "head". As I said before I came off all pills and was clean for about three months. Felt pretty good besides the fact that I told myself if I took one it wouldn't hurt anything. Well it did. It hurt me and screwed my life up again. I'm so afraid of stoping and then getting back on them but I know this has to be where I'm at my strongest. And yes my husband has control over the pills when we have them but he is killing me here. Taking me down way to fast. He's trying from me taking 10- 10s a day too two 7.5s a day and it does help some but I have to get up and take care of my babies. They are all young and really need me. The feeling like crap part makes me want to give up at times but I know I can't and these feeling will go away. But it hurts my heart to hear my kids ask, mommy what's wrong. Or they ask me are you going to die. That kills me. No I'm not gonna die but yea it feels like it. But I won't ever tell them. Sorry about me blabbing on and on but I can't do anything but sit here and freaking cry then be mad about crying. I just want this to end once and for all. I know my babies need me more than them pills do. It's just soo hard. And thanks again for the look into the journal. Thank u all for your words.

[KeepingFaith32]

Thanks to all of you. I have been all over the net looking at different things that help. And while I know there's ways to help none seems right in the time I'm trying to quit. I know that's all in my "head". As I said before I came off all pills and was clean for about three months. Felt pretty good besides the fact that I told myself if I took one it wouldn't hurt anything. Well it did. It hurt me and screwed my life up again. I'm so afraid of stoping and then getting back on them but I know this has to be where I'm at my strongest. And yes my husband has control over the pills when we have them but he is killing me here. Taking me down way to fast. He's trying from me taking 10- 10s a day too two 7.5s a day and it does help some but I have to get up and take care of my babies. They are all young and really need me. The feeling like crap part makes me want to give up at times but I know I can't and these feeling will go away. But it hurts my heart to hear my kids ask, mommy what's wrong. Or they ask me are you going to die. That kills me. No I'm not gonna die but yea it feels like it. But I won't ever tell them. Sorry about me blabbing on and on but I can't do anything but sit here and freaking cry then be mad about crying. I just want this to end once and for all. I know my babies need me more than them pills do. It's just soo hard. And thanks again for the look into the journal. Thank u all for your words.

[CRSeaside]

Hi. If you can't get the pills to taper-but if you can, I always start by cutting the pills in 1/2. I have been an opioid user all my life. From the different times I successfully stopped taking pills, face it,there is always a world of body pain,&
Mental anguish .   ( or we wouldn't be taking the pain pills to begin with,Would we?     Ok so Help. If you can get Dr supervision ,great.
I do not want to poison your mind by telling you any of my horrible times.
I was just reading on this site MedHelp about a gal that detoxed before ,
had a hard time. & she posted that this time she was prepared for
Withdrawals & she feels ok!  Hope this helps a little. Pamela

[VICourageous]

Hi and Welcome. Is someone handing the pills out to you for a taper?? The reason why I say this is that I to could not do a taper. Heck! After I was on the other opiates I just went up to using the Methadone with 2 other meds. I would tell my friends I was doing a taper..ha!!! 12 years of "Trying to Taper" I had to Jump. I would give them to a family to hide but I could sniff them out and find them. If someone is helping you make sure they hide them good and do not give into you when you beg for just "One"..

There are tons of Addiction videos that are out here. You can also look up tons of information on the web or on MH. This information was so helpful for my Family as it was for me. It helps us all understand what happens. This disease is a Life Long one that takes lots of work to stay clean. If you would like to take a quick peak, I did put some info I got in my Journal..The "Nature of Addiction" and "Addiction and the Pleasure Pathway beyond Will Power". Like I said there is tons and it is so helpful to know..I wish you the best..Keep on keeping and never look back.
Bless

[KeepingFaith32]

Thanks. Ill try the baths as I did before when I quit. I know I have a long road ahead but I'm going to do it this time with no turning back. Today I'm having a lot of stomach pains and wish to god they would stop. But I haven't had a pill today I'm suppose to have one in a little while if everything works out. And I can get one. That's the thing with tapering when u don't have enough to taper with :(

[Sonrissa]

Hi KeepingFaith, and welcome to the forum. I also used to take Lortabs for a long time, and I understand how you feel. For me, I was not able to taper, and I decided to quit cold turkey. It is a rough week, but it really was better than dragging it all out. Your lucky you do have people to help you. We are not able to give you specific taper advice as we are not doctors and don't know about your medical history, etc. That being said, I can tell you that lots of folks have successfully tapered. I understand that slow and steady progress is best. Check out the Thomas Recipe, the link is at the bottom of this page, for information to help with the withdrawal symptoms. Stay well hydrated, take vitamins and supplements, and try to stay as active as you can. Getting outside in the fresh air, and some warm baths with Epsom salts will really help. Hang in there as others will chime in with additional advice and support. Keep posting here with any questions you may have. Take care, I wish you all the best!