I just realized that I am going through Oxycodone withdrawel and didn't even know. I thought I had the flu or something and also since I stopped taking the extreme high dose that I was on and tapered down I have had stomach problems and blamed it on the surgery I had just had so I just had a colonoscopy done to try to figure out what is wrong with me. I am guesing that they are going to find that nothing is wrong now that I have read all this information. I was looking for information on heroin withdrawel for a friend of mine's son and found the lists of withdrawel effects and found that it resembled exactly what I have been complaining about for 2 weeks now. I have been on Percocet for about a year now. I have an extremely high tolerance for pain medication and it makes me spin like iv done speed or chugged 20 cups of coffee. I have two huniated discs in my back and found that if I take the oxycodone I can get everything I want to get done, done and I dont feel any pain while I do it an dthe pills give me a ton of energy. After my hystorectomy in September of 2011 I was kept on the Percocet till the end of December and was taking 2 5mg tabs at a time sometimes only an hour or two apart. On the days I didnt take them and felt bad I blamed it on the post surgery and just took a bunch of xanex and called it a day. The next day I would do the same thing again so I never went into complete withdrawel even when I cut down. Last week I realized that I only had 1 Perc left and the doctor wont give me any more so I decided to save it for when I realy do need it and quit cold turkey. I never even gave it a thought that I would get sick from the meds. For the past week I have been vomiting, my legs and arms are jerking, I couldnt sleep for three days even thought I felt exhausted and had taken sleep meds, I itch everwhere REALLY BAD, and my mouth tastes like I have been eating metal. On Saturday I decided to take some Ultram 50mg's to help with my back hurting from sittin goin the toilet so much. I took 4 of them and they did not help at all. I chalked this up to a high tolerance and took them again on Sunday, Monday and today hoping that it would start to work once the Percs were out of my system. I got on the computer for a friend and when I found heroin listed along with Oxycodone I got suspicious so after she left I did some research and found this web site. I have read all kinds of posts on not only Oxycodone and Percocet but also Ultram which I didnt know was a synthetic of what I was already on. I also didn't think I had a problem, till now. I really just blamed most of these bad feelings on a case of the stomach flu but after reading for a while I decided to take half a perc to see if I felt any better and it did help, not much but a little so I decided I cannot pretend that I am not addicted any more. I am on Lexapro and Xanex for anxiety and Trazadone to help me sleep so this should help me with some of it I understand but it is not helping enough to make it unnoticible. I actually broke down crying the beginning of last week and blamed it on mood swings after the surgery and now I see that it is coming from the meds. This is really confusing to me because I have never been addicted to pain killers before and never could understand why people just cant stop taking them when they want to. I probably just prolonged my misery by taking the Ultram and Perc that I took today and that ***** because now that I know what is causing me to feel this way I really want to quit and never take them again. Everyone on here is saying that this is going to last for months and I would like to know if this is acurate because I dont have months to go through this. I have two young daughters to care for and am in college so I need my head to be clear now. I have already went through the mental cloud and forgetfulness stage I know because last weekend I spend two days going um and forgeting what I was talking about half-way through a sentence. I have thrown up and had diarea. I itch everywhere. My legs and arms are jerking alot and I cant keep my hands from shaking. What I need to know is do I have to go through the worst part of this again since I have taken the Ultram and the half a Perc or is that behind me and if I just stop taking any form of Opiat drug I will continue to detox as everyone else does. If so then I should be on the way out now and things will just get better, if not I want to be prepared. I just want to feel normal, again. How long does it take your brain to start making the right chemicals again? Will my body start working properly again ever? Am I the first person to not even realize that they were going through withdrawel and blamed it something else? I just want to be off this stuff now and I think I can deal with the mental part because I have always had anxiety issues so I am used to that it is the physical part that I cant stand. I can even deal with the pain if the jerking, itching and sleep problems would go away. How much longer do I have? Any help or input would be greatly appreciated because I do not have anyone I can talk to about this. Thanks.