Just needing some encouragement..

[denise3606]

69 days ago I made the choice not to take anymore hydro..DOC...I have an amazing trip coming up this Christmas...I wanted to get clean and to not have to worry about counting pills and making sure I have some and I have done such a great job in getting rid of my sources..I had no idea that the ups and downs would  be so bad, like today...I am also very grateful that I no longer take these pills because the same problems are still here...Now I have to feel my way though them. And yes it is much harder when you are older. But really this is how normal people live and deal with what life has and knowing that all will be good in the end does give me encouragement..I am so grateful that I have this place to vent and tell you how I feel...I will try to stay positive and ask God to remove this dark cloud because what I am worried about, I can't do anything about...I also know that worry is from the devil...He loves to keep us down so we can cave...Thanks for letting me to vent...Hugs...

[Sonrissa]

Hey Denise! Now there ya go! Baking bread is a great way to deal with stress and anxiety. Much better than taking pills, right? Congrats on the 69 days! Amazing accomplishment! Be proud of yourself! Yes, we still have to deal with the ups and downs of life! But it's much easier without the added stress of pills! I always say, sometimes you are the windshield, and sometimes you are the bug! It's dumb, I know...but it's true. Keep posting anytime you need some support and encouragement!

[denise3606]

Great, The doc said there is damage and that is why he wants an MRI...I am just grateful that I can function better...Come over, I have homemade butter too...Hugs

[BarbRTR]

Yummy!!! Can I come eat? :)

Depending on where your shot was, cortisone shots take up to 72 hours to peek. Meaning you'll prob feel even better!

[denise3606]

Thanks all of you..Just so you know my house smells so dang good right now..I decided since I could not solve anything today. I made some homemade bread..I thought I was getting an MRI last week, but instead I saw the doctor and I am getting one this coming Tuesday..He gave me a crotosone  shot...Have no idea how to spell that..It feels better, but I know I am doing too much...It is so hard to change at this age...Hugs everyone and Thank you again..

[kyle505]

In this situation I'd venture a guess that the worry/anxiety is not from the devil, it is from your mind adjusting to not having pills. The physical part of detox is easy compared to the mental struggle.
Your clean time is amazing, but you will still experience what I call the detox roller coaster of emotions - we all do.
I'm at 21 months clean today, and every once in awhile my mind whispers to me about how wonderful things were on pills. And the holidays - don't even get me started.
You've done a great thing. Be proud, and enjoy your trip.
K

[BarbRTR]

Time is a word we all use in saying it will get better. It will improve, give it time. And it does.

But time also makes you forget the bad days using, how frustrating life was counting all those pills, etc.
Personally I don't really remember how bad WDs were. So you've hit the mental, and I'm so glad you're reaching out for encouragement. I think the battle is so much worse those first few weeks after acute symptoms end.

So please keep posting when you have a down day. We are all in a battle, together.

Hope you feel better soon! And Yayy for a trip!! Shoot, it might be only September, but trip time, and better times, will be here before you know it!
Hugs

[spider6]

Hey Miss Denise.
Congrats on your 69 days!  I cannot wait to be able to say that.  I am at
39 days today....

I have been feeling very much like you have Denise, this last week or so.
Realizing and acknowledging my issues and problems that have never gone away.  It is hard, I am 54yrs.  I really don't know who I am so my
reaction to my ups and downs are quite new to me as well as to everyone else.

As you, I am so grateful to my MH family as I couldn't have come this far
without them.  I couldn't be more happy about not having to count and plan etc. I will never take another pill,  Though I also didn't realize how bad the ups and downs would be.

I wish you minimum struggles, pray you keep your strength and know you will have such a wonderful trip at xmas.
peace and sistas in fightin the demons.
hugs.

[FourJays]

You made the right choice 69 days ago!  The 'ups and downs' can be really crazy for sure.  Feels like a roller coaster of emotions and we never know when those lows are going to hit.  The great thing is that the lows are temporary and they do lessen in severity over time (yes, the dreaded 'time'!).  It's just like you said about "normal people"; we are learning how to deal with things again.  THIS is our new 'normal'; and how nice will it be to go on that trip and not have to worry about pills - NO counting, NO planning, NO worries!  I hope the dark cloud passes quickly and the brightness returns - and it will!  You have come so, so far.....stay positive and vent anytime; that's what we are all here for :))

[ROSYouralright]

Denise you are an inspiration to me and so many others! You have handled each day with style and grace! You are one amazing woman! Things will get easier over time. I'm at 59 days and still have times when it's so hard to keep going... Many times when I think it would be better to be numb but the truth of it is we are better off NOT popping pills. It will take time to heal from all the abuse we put ourselves through but everyday will get a little bit better than the last.... Rome wasn't built in a day sweet friend.... Hang in there! Everything will level out

[HappyDays2Come]

Awwww, hi Denise. I'm so sorry that you're having a bad day, but try to do something to change that. Go for a walk, exercise, have lunch / dinner with a friend, etc. When I have days like that I get out of my house (and off the couch:) and it helps tremendously. You've been the epitome of success and motivation for many of us and I really hope your day gets better. Hugs!