I was on a wonderful road to sobriety for very close to a year......now that I look back at my last journal on here (a yr ago) I am extremely dissapointed in myself. i never thought I would end up back in a bad situation again. But HERE I AM WORLD!!!!!! I am no where near as bad off on pills as I was a yr ago.....an I did get clean, with much help from this site and my doc. Many, many emotional things happened in my life since then, and here I am......I have been taking pain pills and xanex for a couple months, and drinking a lil too much too.... I have recentely left my fiance that I have a 3 year old son with, to now become a single and afraid mother....still.....I know there is NO excuse.......but I do know that I AM AN ADDICT and accept the fect that I fell off for a little bit and I need to get back on track, before I have to go threw the HORRIBLE withdrawls that I did before......I HAVE to be there....the ONLY one there for my ANGEL....my son!!!! MY WORLD. And not to mention.....a guy I am interested in is about to be out of his 30 day rehab stay and clean and sober again, and I cant be with him if Im not clean.....
I am just very ashamed that I am back here a YEAR LATER doing the same old ****! !!!!!!!! (just not near as bad, thank GOD!)
Going to bed.......hopefully.......lots on my mind........(and I need a JOB !!!!! ASAP!!!! ) Ughhhhh!!!!! STRESSS!!!!! LIFE!!!
But I know I am way more blessed than others, so I try and count my blessings everyday......and love the people I do have in my life.....
NITE NITE~~~~~
JEN~~~~ ;)