A little over a year ago, the doctor told me that I would need surgery on my left knee because of a torn miniscus. He put me on hydrocodone at 5/500 at up to 8 pills per day for almost a year. After the surgery, I tried to stop cold turkey, but I couldn't. I realized that I became addicted to the drug. I couldn't sleep, my joints were jerking all around during the night, my eyes were costantly watery and always had a runny nose, but the worse was the depression and axiety which was hard to bear. I felt hopeless and unmotivated and didn't find interest in anything. I went to my doctor, who helped me ween myself off of them (not the same doctor that prescribed them in the first place.). I finally got off of them and was off for about two months until I went on a business trip and a friend of mine gave me 5 pills, which were even stronger than the ones I was taking before at 10/500. That night, I went through all of them, since I realized that feeling of euphoria that I longed for. That was my mistake. When I came back from my trip a couple of days later, this friend of mine could get me as many as I wanted at $3 a piece. I purchased 50 of them, and they lasted about a week. When I ran out, his connection was gone, so I tried to quit, but couldn't bear the withdrawals. I started going to the hospital emergency room and making up stories about having pain so the doctors kept prescribing me what I needed. I've done that four times in the past month, and I know that it is wrong, not to mention, illegal. I want to quit for good. I have a seven year old son and a wife who's five months pregnant with our daughter. I don't want my kids to have a junkie for a father. Today, I got a new prescription of about 30 pills of 5/500 hydrocodones and took three of them instantly, just to relieve the depression. What should I do. Please help.