Here I go again

[Pat1956100]

I am on day 1 again opiate free.  My tylenol 3 taper which I was doing to help get off the percs and oxy's didn't work.  I started out okay but just ended up binging on them.  I keep making it to day 2 and then cave and ended up having to buy some percs.  In the last week I have been on day 2 about 3x.  
I need to post so I have to be accountable to someone as I can't do it alone.
I am feeling really sick right now and have all the bad withdrawal symptoms.  Hoping to feel okay by the end of the weekend.  This has to be the last time for me.  I am truly done and sick of pills.  I don't even get high off them anymore.  They just make me feel normal and take away the depression and anxiety for a little while.  
I was really looking forward to enjoying this summer pill free and it's not too late.  I can do this with help from this forum.

[Sonrissa]

Hear Hear Self!! I absolutely agree and couldn't have said it any better!

[selfinduced]

You have had much anguish in your life. This is a new beginning. I will tell you that living without pills is an out of body kind of experience when your life has revolved around them. You will be sooo much happier mentally and physically. Your self esteem and confidence in knowing you fought and won will rise beyond words. You are a terrific woman and you deserve all this life has to offer. Hang in there, the best is yet to come!!!

[Pat1956100]

No access to a sauna but we have been having a heat wave here so I feel like I'm in a sauna.  Maybe it's helping.  Really drained today but hoping to try and walk tomorrow, when it's dark and nobody can see me.  
Thanks for stopping in and I appreciate your advice.  I want this so bad.  Enough is enough.

[Pat1956100]

Really looking forward to being a clean member of society.  I am looking forward to regaining my dignity and strength.  I like that I can say I am almost 2 days clean.  There are lots of positives going around in my head.

[selfinduced]

Theres my funny girl shining thru! Keep saying these words to yourself....THIS IS NOT FOREVER, TOMORROWS A NEW DAY! To get past this you need to go thru it. Stay in the bathtub for the next 2 days if necessary. I see my friend Rush popped in to cheer you on, you have no idea how special that is...he is amazing and very busy. YOU can do this my friend....day by day!

[Sonrissa]

Hmmmm, what a great idea! The Secret Detoxers kit comes with a hot maid and a silver tinkle bell!!! Wish I was there, I would help you, but I'm not male, and NOT hot! LOL! You sound like your attitude is good!