Holiday memories & DANGERS

[OxyTired]

At 5 months clean my "self" is starting to return. I am experiencing memories that have been lost in the fog for years. Driving to the store yesterday though, the old Demon prompted that oh so familiar Holiday yearning to make things "Just a little better"
I can remember that vivid "bite" of my old amber friend Jim Beam who warmed my veins long before the Demon introduced me to the rush of a Holiday morning launched by oxycodone. What could be a more wonderful way to enjoy Thanksgiving and decorate the tree? (Than being so zoned as to miss most of the day??)
So I put my Guard on double duty. I like my "day after" now being full of warm and unclouded memories. I love being free of the shackles of drugs and booze. Even "bad things" are easier to deal with, now that my thinking is more clear and centered.
The Holidays can be a treacherous time for recovering addicts, because with holiday feelings, regrets and joys, running high, the addictive Demon will don his Santa suit to spread holiday cheer (misery)
Happy Holidays to all here on the Forum! My new Holiday tradition will be reading these posts and celebrating True Joy in recovery and living a life free from addictive substances!!!

[Kbusymom]

What a great post and reminder.  Thanks!!  

[Heather8448]

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! All I can say is THANK GOD for marathon meetings and NA!!

[dominosarah]

I remember those days, mine was Black Velvet.  What a sad sad existance that was.  I doubled up on both just to get thru the day thinking i was really pulling one over on everyone.  Little did i know at that time i was only fooling myself.  Today is different, i am here in mind and body.  Everyday that i am clean and sober is Thanksgiving~