Not really a question just a statement.... im new here!

[xistn]

I just turned 30... ehhh!  Anyways, im a 30yr old male that has been on xanax and antidepressents sincse I was 16yrs old.  Like usuallllll I take it like im suppose to or whenever I really NEEDED it.  Then with anti-dep. (for the record ive been on everyone but, the "newest" anti-dep. out) anyways, so long and short I got to a point where not only did i like the way it made me feel.  I was able to be a "normal" person and actually walk out my front door, drive, work, go to work, stores, etc. So, I started taking it like a p.m. (preventative maintance) so, now im on 1mg and there are days (depending on the generic brand i get, because some are stronger/more effective than others) where I take 2 a day as NEEDED like im suppose to.  Other days I'll take 5, 8, the HIGHEST i ever took was 17.  That won't happen again.  Its crazy because i can go days with out one, then there are days i need to take my 2 or sometimes ill LIMIT myself no matter what at 3 a day.  Im actually at a point where yes, im addicted but, I need them because I do get BAD panic attacks.  Yes, ive been through my script to soon and had BAD BAD lol with drawls.  I dont wish it upon anyone.  Anyone who I meet that just get started on it i tell them try something else stay away or TAKE IT ONLY AS YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO.  But, who am I to talk right!!!!  Plus, yes I drink(not everyday or night) but, when I do I have my whiskey or scotch on the rocks plus of course taking my xanax.  Its crazy because I know better AND lets just say im like Dr. House!

[avisg]

no cting off benzos  it can be life threatening and if you keep mixing with alchol one of these days your luck will run out and you will be done .plz get some help.you life is worth living ....you can do it

[dominosarah]

Are you wanting to get off these??  Stopping cold turkey is very dangerous with these meds.  Mixing alcohol is even more dangerous......