Hi everybody,
Ive been posting for a few weeks now, i recently asked a question about the way my husband was treating me, lots of you answered me and a few were incredibly supportive. Anyway my husband checked my computer history (that i dont delete as i dont feel i have a reason to) He read the post and everything else id posted and responses, he basically told me the reason i was going to stay with my family was "novelty" and a reason to party with my friends. He had completely missed the point that i was going as he had been abusive and unsupportive and that my family could support me after my mums death and my friends were also offering support, I was so so upset I had to explain myself and that he had AGAIN! invaded my privacy..,.. Anyway the reason for this post is that i dont feel comfortable posting anymore, the help and support was fantastic and my one source of help and reliance, however my husband has invaded that privacy and im positive he will read my posts and responses again, i dont feel i have my privacy anymore, i also have to watch what i write incase he took it the wrong way and i have to explain (as in when i said i was going to meet up with friends i hadnt seen for ages, i had to explain to him i wasnt partying! it was for support). Im really upset over this but needs must, Ill have to continue with my addiction support from my doctor (or somthing like that). I just wanted to thank any of you who responded to my posts and made me feel i was not a waste of space , who also supported me and made me feel unisolated and hopeful for once , for the unconditional support after my mum died suddenly, after reading some of your messages it made me feel i had a reson to get up some mornings. You are all fantastic people, i wish you all well and hope you can all conquer your demons. Again thankyou all you have all been more helpful than you could ever know , GOOD LUCK TO YOU ALL
JEM XXXXXXXXXXXXX
P.S any last comments are welcome xxxxx