I got my own account now

[wantnormalagain]

Well that was easier than i thought, i dont know how to transfer our conversation from my moms account to here, so any questions and i will answer them again, i just wanna quit

[sudie58]

hi, i just wanted to acknowledge your new account, i have read your moms posts, and your previous ones, just want to wish you well, god bless.

[IBKleen]

Glad you got the new account. It is easier this way.

I've done a lot of reading so don't mind me if I repeat myself, but when do you plan to start your detox? Is it tomorrow?

[GMcp]

you should copy and repost your other post just so the others who dont know you are who you are yet can figure it out lol

[GMcp]

i just looked at your profile it says you are from bc, is that bc british columbia ?

[wantnormalagain]

I started today my detox, and yes BC Canada....

[GMcp]

cool, i just havnt met n e one else on here from canada so thats cool im from bc too

[IBKleen]

Good for you! How are you feeling? Do you have everything you need in the house--such as vitamins, Imodium, stuff to drink and eat? One of the things I found most helpful was hot baths to relax me and to sooth my calves which ached for the first few days. If you can, take walks to help with that as well. Exercise, even in short spurts, will help the detox.

Best of luck and any questions, feel free to ask.

[vicki595]

Okay!!  Here you are!  

You know,you want what we all wanted and you can get there.  Yes,day three is a turning point and it can get rough but that's when you have to use your head. And really, it may not be too bad because you've tapered a little bit. The other good thing is that you're not in this alone!!  You've got your Mom and Dave!!   The support makes a huge difference!

Insomnia is a biggie with this process and lack of sleep can make us crazy,I agree! You need to prepare for that. There's an over the counter med called Alteril, I think. I don't know if you have it up there but maybe Mom can look for it.  It works great and it's just a combination of amino acids: L-tryptophan,Valerian root, and Melatonin.  If she can't find it then she get those things separately.

I know you want this,I know you don't want to cause your Mom any heartache, and I believe you never set out to have this happen. I'm sure it was just a nice escape for you.
But,now you know it isn't really nice and you'll learn how to escape without pills,trust me!!
Hang in there!!

[wantnormalagain]

How do i feel? i feel like crap, and thats mildly put, or politly put, my girlfriend is one of those who can sleep through most of the withdrawls, which can be frustrating but good for her, i didnt think it would come so strong so fast, mom dropped off energy bars and roasted chicken, she asked me to let all know we have only the one computer and she thinks it best if i have it to speak to everyone, she says thank you for all your support and she will be back on probably tomorrow for a few minutes, I want to thank everyone for your words to my mother, she is a dear lady who has helped so many through her time, she has a huge heart and you ppl here really touiched her at your support for her, so thank you everyone of you

[tgtiffany]

Your 1st post:

My mother has said this site has helped her alot with my addiction, and she has said i could use her account for information. I tried to quit the oxycotin about 6 months ago but was not successful, i made it to day 3 and couldn't do it, I really want to quit but it felt like i went insane literly, I am tired of having to do pills so i am not sick, i am so tired of it, I know there is no short cut for the withdrawls, but what can i do so not to feel insane again? I really want to quit so bad, i would do just about anything.

2nd post:

Hi
  Okay to answer some of the questions i have been doing oxycotin for about 2 years at one point it was 10-15 a day, i realized i had a problem and that it wasnt something i wanted so i tried to quit,as i said i made it to day three but it did feel like i was going insane, i felt like i lost my mind literly, the only good thing was the tolerance went down to 5-6 a day, i know still not good but better than 15, next question, How bad do i want this? I want this more than i want anything, i did something a year ago that mom doesnt even know yet she does know that i have to tell her something that she wont like but we will talk once i am done and she agreed, it was wrong and a terrible thing to do. I am not myself, i know this. Yes i deal with the loss of my dad and brother and seee the shrink for that and have been for a year, that isnt so much an issue, i do miss them and do love them but i have said good bye. I do have support as in my mom and my girlfriend and Dave the ranch foreman. My girlfriend was doing up to 8 a day as of yesterday, i stopped using oxycotin and got hydromorph contin's and split them in half over the last few days i felt the diffrence as i was alittle achy and bitchy, but not to my mom. I know this is my own problem, and i know i need to do this for me, and i am, I have responsibilities that i need to fullfill and i need to be the person i should not some drug addict, not saying that rudely so please dont take offence to that, but i want this realy bad to answer the question, i am scared not of the first few days, but like the last time the 3rd day, i hadnt slept in those days and on the third day i felt like i lost my mind really.........i want this in the worst way but am realy scared, i feel like crap now, but i am on here and playing the video game, someone has told me when they were in jail they got clonidine, i think i spelled it right, i might be able to get the nurse practioner to write me a perscription fo r that if it works, i dont want to take things that are not going to work or make things worst.....I am open to all and any ideas any help would be great

3rd post:

Hi
  My girlfriend is and want to get clean also, she was doing the oxycotins still till this morning, i was doing the hydromoph contins (1/2 in the am and 1/2 pm) i know we have a lokng road ahead of us, but I am 1000% sure i want this, I will create my own account to make thins easier,,,,,,i will post the name when the site gives it to me.....

[wantnormalagain]

Thank you for doing that, sorry, i just forgot.....but thank you

[tgtiffany]

No problem :)  Just that way anyone new can know what's going on and wont' have to ask a million more questions that you've already answered :) Tell your mom I said that she's wonderful too!!!  So glad that you have someone like that to help you through all of this.  There doesn't seem to be enough people who understand and can actually help sometimes.  How are you doing??

[wantnormalagain]

Hi
   honestly....... i feel like #*!#!*#*!#!*#*!........ i cant put those words on here, it didnt come on so quick the last time i tried to quit, and the gf is asleep, how is it that some people can sleep through the wd and others can't, i didnt eat much of the chicken, it smelled good, looked great, and i could see was moist but as soon as it touched my mouth seemed to be really dry for some reason, so didnt eat much, i am drinking alittle but nothing huge just dont want to, or  whatever, yes im sorry im alittle edgy and moody, and restless, and well scared.....but doing it......

[vicki595]

Listen to me right now!!   I've already said this several times:  YOU NEED TO DRINK!!

It's really important and eat as well. You'll feel like crap if you don't. Now help yourself here!!  Your Mom has gone to a lot of trouble to make you comfortable and well. It's the least you can do if you're serious about this!!

[GMcp]

i couldnt drink any thing ither but then got a bunch of gatoraid and i just chugged it down it felt so good you need it, get some!

[wantnormalagain]

Hi
I know she did beleive me, dave told me also, i have cases of orange, apple, grape, peach juices, as well as 4 cases of water and 2 cases of gatorage in 2 flavours, and 2 cases of ensure, I know she did alot, but i drink and it feels like it is going to come back up.......or just has a realy gross taste, but i have forced down some, i dont need reminded of what my mom did beleive me, i appreciate ad love my mom so very much, sorry didnt mea to sound stand offish, so please dont take it that way, i am i a foul mood for some reason and nothing has changed here, she is still sleeping, i would love to be able to sleep like her, i am eveous of her for it, but i knew comming in she sleeps through alot of the withdrawls, she quit last time i tried she slept 80% of the 3 days away, i couldnt sleep a wink.......im going to sign off for the night just because i feel a rotten mood, and i dont want to spoil any friendships i may be able to make her or offend anyone you were all great to my mom, i am having Dave lock the door from the outside, just to ensure i cant leave, he has agreed to do it only when i request it.....have a goood night to alll, mine will suck but caused by my own stupidity.......

[wantnormalagain]

Hi,
I understand, and i have lots just everything tastes so gross, but i will force myself to drink some of it, thank you sorry if i offeded anyone, i am just in a sour mood......sorry to all, and thank you

[GMcp]

dont be sorry i was a b-tch too big time!
ok im going to tell u somthin! i was havin it HARD! like i wanted to die until i started takin 5-htp,fish oil tabs,magnesium,zink,copper,calcium,gaba plus,valaian root,relora and melitonin, if u take 2 relora 2 Valerian and 2 gaba plus at night u will calm right down and take the other stuff as the bottles say, if you r really struggling i strongly suggest that, im not that far ahead of you about 45 days clean had 1 relapse but i swear by that vitamin cocktail u will feel tons better

[wantnormalagain]

Hi
I just went to your site, and read your journel, sorry if i wasnt suppose to, i am so sorry to hear about your condition, i dont know what to say at all, except you are a hell of a tropper, wow the energy and determination and attitute towards life is great wish everyone i knew was like that, i appreciate all your help same as vickies and everyone else who has or will write to me, i really do appreciate it, i am just foul and its not normally me, for anyone that knows me, my nickname was pussycat (i know lol) so if i did offend ayone with my post about my mom sorry i am real protective of her, she has done so much for me and everyone who crosses her path......have a good night all

[GMcp]

i dont mind, its fine, i dont think you offended any one, but i think u should try the vits

[wantnormalagain]

Hi
I will ask Dave to grab those for me, i am on ranch lock down (6000 acres) but not allowed off the ranch for ay reason, that was one of the conditions i had to agree to, plus the truck keys bike keys, 4 wheeler keys, if i wat i can use the horses but again must stay on the ranch, but mom says anything anyone comes up with from the site that will help she will get or have Dave grab for me, but i must stay on the ranch same as the girlfriend, if she leaves she is not allowed back not even to visit well i am doing my detox, and two weeks after that well i see the shrink, didnt seem unreasonable considering all she is doing as well as the ranch hands, i had more support than i thought i did, i thought it was just mom, but it seems its all that are here, it is overwelming, sorry for rambling, just felt like talking, im going to shut down and maybe go for a ride just to get out and take the horse for a run,,,,,,it is exercise beleive it or not, my legs are really weak, like i said i read your medical thing, i am so sorry you must have surgury agai, here i am just a dumb addict who was to stupid to stay away from something i knew better than to do, and then there are people like you who have these medical conditions and still get clean it really gives me hope.......have a great nite

[wantnormalagain]

Have a great nite, again sorry if i offended you.........to update the last post no ride, Dave says its to late, and to dark, for me right now, he would worry something happens and i end up out there, or as he said "some ******* meets you out there" he will ride with me in the morning, my excercise tonight is the thumb on the PS3, or pace the trailer.....i think this may suck and i should have chosen the basement apt,,,,,oh welll    just 3 more days maybe i hope, i really feel like crap though really restless, but have a great night, i will read the morning post,,,,again thank you for helping my mom......

[quitinoxys]

Hey I am soooo glad you decided to just go for it. When you were trying to taper you were just prolonging the inevitable. Being in a lousy mood is all part of w/d I know I was a real  a-hole when I quit. As Vicki told you you MUST drink alot of fluids as it will help flush your system. If you can get yourself some Krill Oil as the Omega-3's helps your brain re-wire itself try to take at least 1800 mg/day. For sleep I used melatonin and valerian root, if you use melatonin during the day go out and get yourself some sun then at night take the melatonin and lay down in a completly dark room believe me it will help you to sleep. I see in your posting that you and your girlfriend are doing w/d together. Remember you will both be on edge so treat each other with respect and kindness as you may both get on each others last nerve. Your GF is lucky she can sleep through this but she should get up and do some sort of exercise (as well as you) to speed up her metabolism or it may prolong her w/d. If you can take long walks or some other form of exercise. Remember this is a temporary thing you are going through now but getting clean and staying clean is a permenant thing. You should both be proud of yourselves for taking this mature step to get your life back. I am sure your Mom is very proud of you for doing it. Your Mom sounds like a great person and Mom and I can see the love she has for you through her posts. If you need to yell, rant  just get things out just  come here and post. If you would like you can message me and I will try to help you out the best I can as I know how hard this is to do. Once the w/d is over you will be glad you did it. I will pray for you, your GF and Mom and ask God to give you the strenght and guidance to make it to the otherside. So keep on keepin on you are doing great. God Bless Rick & Ashley

[GMcp]

thats good that they can get you what ever you need seems u have it really good, they seem like awesome ppl <3 if u get those vit's let me know even inbox me kay i wanna know if they help u as much as they helped me